Ouch!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Hey..you dont have to talk..but I'm sorry about Tiffany and Megan interrogating you..or whatever it was they said. but...I dont know..I dont know why Im sorry...but...I am...Ill tell them to leave you alone, as I am..Its just they were mad because I was hurt..but oh well..So..Um, Bye..I guess
beyonddeath82: no bye
XXCrimsonCryXX: ...?
beyonddeath82: i dont even know what you tripping about
XXCrimsonCryXX: What? Im not tripping.....what are you talking about?
beyonddeath82: i havent been talking to you because i've been busy
XXCrimsonCryXX: Its not only that..........if you ever listened to someone for a change, you'd have known
beyonddeath82: well im sorry
XXCrimsonCryXX: How can you be sorry?! You dont even know what Im mad about
beyonddeath82: well you know im got alot in my head right now
XXCrimsonCryXX: As if I dont?!
beyonddeath82: well is your brother dieing
beyonddeath82: yeah he has 2 weeks
beyonddeath82: ok
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay. And I said sorry, and I tried to be there for you numerous times..but all you do is push me away..and My Dad is still dying! GEEZ!
beyonddeath82: now tell me whats the matter
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, as I said..Im trying to be here for you...and well, you dont want me to I guess..and you rudely tell me your looking for a g/f..and your just being a jerk, which is completely understandle..but..I dont know
XXCrimsonCryXX: understandable*
beyonddeath82: i want you there desperatly but im not use to having ppl on my side and im sorry for that and your right i do want a gurl friend. someone who can care for me above it all. thats pritty much it but if im being a " jerk " thats not my problem
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay.....I dont have much to say to that
beyonddeath82: really now
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yes, really...
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::sigh::
XXCrimsonCryXX: Alright..well, sorry..
beyonddeath82: its not your fault
XXCrimsonCryXX: Apparantly it is.
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay then...good luck on the g/f search...and, Im sorry about your brother.. (theres not much I can say to make you feel better) and..I suppose thats it..
beyonddeath82: one more thing
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay..
beyonddeath82: im sorry about your father
XXCrimsonCryXX: Hes doing okay now..kinda...but dont worry about it, its not of your concern..
beyonddeath82: for your information i am concerned about him
beyonddeath82: i dont want anyone to die
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, dont be.
beyonddeath82: my god
XXCrimsonCryXX: What?!
beyonddeath82: im being a jerk
XXCrimsonCryXX: No
XXCrimsonCryXX: Not right now
beyonddeath82: no yuo
XXCrimsonCryXX: I am. Okay? yes, Im the selfish, bitch! I KNOW! Geez. Im the herk
beyonddeath82: i show the slitest compassion and you turn it around in my face
XXCrimsonCryXX: jerk*
XXCrimsonCryXX: No
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, yes I did.
XXCrimsonCryXX: But Escuse me for being hurt for like a freaking week, and still being a bit mad!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Listen..I didnt mean to be a bitch..Im sorry...
beyonddeath82: no
XXCrimsonCryXX: No..what?
beyonddeath82: it doesnt matter how hard i try to make things right to anyone. they all just take my sorries and shit like that and kick me in the ass with them
XXCrimsonCryXX: Thats not what Im trying to do Emanuel.
XXCrimsonCryXX: I just thought that you didnt want to be my friend anymore..I kinda thought you liked Megan..Im sorry.
beyonddeath82: no
beyonddeath82: i did awile ago
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, I thought you did recently..
beyonddeath82: no
beyonddeath82: what the hell gave you that idea
XXCrimsonCryXX: My paranoid self...
beyonddeath82: plus you know megan has a b/f
XXCrimsonCryXX: I know.
XXCrimsonCryXX: But they are going to be only friends...I figured you knew
beyonddeath82: why would that matter if i liked her anyway
XXCrimsonCryXX: I dont think that matters...why it would matter..
beyonddeath82: exactly
XXCrimsonCryXX: Exactly what?
beyonddeath82: I DONT KNOW
XXCrimsonCryXX: I mean its not of your concern as to why it would matter ot me if you liked Megan! geez
XXCrimsonCryXX: to*
beyonddeath82: ok
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay then...
XXCrimsonCryXX: Are we still friends, or not?
beyonddeath82: i dont even know anymore
XXCrimsonCryXX: Do you even want to be?
beyonddeath82: i do
XXCrimsonCryXX: So do I..
beyonddeath82: and again i'll say this
beyonddeath82: i want to be your friend forever
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay..so, how about we just forget this last conversation ever happened? And..be friends?
beyonddeath82: you can say that but it will always be in your head
beyonddeath82: just knowing that it did really happen
XXCrimsonCryXX: Tis true..
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, what do you purpose we do about it then?
beyonddeath82: i dont know
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well...we could not be friends...be friends...or..just..pretend were friends but never really talk..as weve been doing for awhile..
beyonddeath82: god i need to think
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::blink:: oh..um..okay
XXCrimsonCryXX: Ouch..Well...um...just, IM me or something when you have a..decision then...
beyonddeath82: give me your email address
XXCrimsonCryXX: XXCrimsonCryXX@cs.com
beyonddeath82: well im going now
XXCrimsonCryXX: Alright...um..bye then..
beyonddeath82: bye and good night
XXCrimsonCryXX: night

(Conversation with Emanuel today...)
Im glad though, because me and Megan are talking again, and everything is out in the open. Its cool. We are hanging out later this week. And I made a new friend. I think her name is Ashley. Shes cool. And I am really upset about Emanuel because that really was not cool. ::shakes head:: not cool...But I had fun at Aunt jennys...Me and Jill hung out all day, and in 5 hours Im supposed to get up for church..lol. And I feel so sick, I know...Im going to barf so soon.. And Isabel is so cute! But Mom didnt go with. She was too tired or something, and we dont actually have a ride to church, because she worked tonight and might be too tired..