Friday, November 30, 2007


Painting I did for Crystals new apt.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Get a Job -- Offspring!

Well thanksgiving break is over and I am back at school. I am not happy to be here - my roommate seems to always be in the room and she is loud. Shes always on the phone - until at least 3 AM... I barely sleep but for whatever reason I don't ask her not to. I guess because I'll be gone after this term and starting something now seems pointless. Its just so disrespectful to be talking loudly on the phone until mostly 4 or even 5 AM when your roommate has to get up at 8... Gr. Otherwise, school inst too bad. I dont like my classes and I've given up on French. I have to be failing real bad right now and putting extra effort into it wouldn't pay off - so I'm focusing on maintaining my Phil, ARTH, and ENGL grades and maybe trying to raise my STATS grade a bit. Apparently the majority of the people in my Stats class are juniors and seniors. It's no wonder I am struggling. :/ So if I can pull off an impressive grade on my Stats final it will be fine - but each test score has gone down 20%. My first test I got 90%, second I got 65% and third I got 50%. At this rate I will get a 30% on the final. Yikes.


Over the break I applied to a lot of places. Blockbuster, AMC Theater, Target, KFC, Dunkin Donuts, Walgreens, Lord & Taylors, Home Depot, Kohls, Nordstrom, CVS, Petland, Jewel, Dominicks, Babies R Us, Toys R Us, FedEx, Romanos Macaroni Grill, Michaels, T Mobile... I need a job ASAP. Unfortunately I dont have a good feeling that I'll get one.. Im willing to work anywhere - I still have to apply at McDonalds and Wal Mart. Wish me luck?

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Monday, November 19, 2007


So I'm not gonna lie guys. I dyed my hair blonde - twice. And thats all I am going to say about that right now. Let me know what you think. :P

Thursday, November 08, 2007

What's Going On.

I talked to my mom and I convinced her to let me move back in. She doesn't want me to - I know that. She wants to live alone, but I have nowhere else to go. I don't want to either, but what else can I do. So that's all figured out - at least for the short term. For those who don't know, I AM NOT DROPPING OUT OF SCHOOL. My mom was convinced I was dropping out and not going back so I guess that was partly why she was so mad. I am simply leaving NIU when winter break starts and Im not coming back. I'm going to get a job and earn some money so I can get a car (also I gotta get my license). Then in January I am going to reapply for FAFSA as independent and starting either in Summer or Fall I am going to hopefully attend the Roosevelt is Schaumburg. I have NO intention of not going to school; Northern just isnt the place for me. This has little to nothing to do with Travis. I am not dropping out of school to be with him. -_-


Anyway, I can only say that I am very relieved knowing I have a roof over my head come December. Right now my only focus is to pass my classes with at least B's so the credits will transfer. I am REALLY only worried about French because I dont do good on the tests/quizzes and my attendance is less than perfect. I'm also slightly worried bout Statistics but I'm confident that I can pull out with at least a B if I study hard for the next test and the final. On the first test I got 90% and on the second I got 65%. Lol, so my next scores will kinda determine my grade (that and my homework scores). English is good - I think I can pull an A. And Phil I'm sure I'll end with a B because thats what I get on all the work in there. ARTH, well I have no idea what my grade is looking like in there but I'm sure its no worse than a high C or B. :]

Monday, November 05, 2007

I don't know what to do.

Just a quick update: My so-called mother told me yesterday she doesn't want me to move back in with her. She asked for the keys back. I didn't give them to her because my stuff is still there but the fact is.. I have nowhere to go come December. I cant move in with Crystal or my mom and I cant stay at NIU because my loans are coming through the way I planned - I need to take more out to cover the fall term tuition but I cant because my mother wont cosign. Travis says I can move in with him but I know were not that serious yet and that would just be kinda a huge thing to do just because I have a lack of other options. I could also move to Iowa and live with Kami and her family but me and her sister do not get along. Also, I don't think I want to live in Iowa. Lastly, my friend Chrissie said me and her could get a one bedroom apartment together... but I still need to get a job and a car and a license - so I don't know how that could realistically work out. Right now I just don't know what to do at all.