Baby Ethan

Okay. Well, a lot has kind of been going on lately. Me and Theo got into this argument kind of. You can read his journal at http://holylight.blogspot.com if you want to hear his side of it. But basically, I got really sick of..::sigh:: ill just say events that were reacurring. I was dealing with some greif in my life (Tobi mostly) and the frusteration he gave me blew up. I told him how I really felt, he wrote how he felt and that was it. Most of the week I just let myself get caught up in so much frusteration. Like, just thinking about the situation would get me so mad I wanted to cry because I could get rid of that feeling. Finally, yeterday I just got down before God and told Him that I could not handle this alone. Id been trying to all week and it was so obviously not working. So through a lot of prayer and bible reading I just got back to this point where I realize theres no reason to make myself get like that. I talked to Theo and cleared the air. When I think about everything, still there is a little bit in me that gets frusterated but thankfully now I catch it and just pray about it before I let it get hold of the rest of my day. The weirdest thing though, and the biggest reason I decided to even make a post about this, is that the discussion in Roots danced around this entire thing. I mean, exactly what Ive been going through; letting the frusteration get to you and not seeking the Lord.. Then finally going to Him and being okay. It was like.. ::shakes head:: so crazy. Jill realized it because she knew the situation and Crystal realized it. We were all just like.. woah. I was laughing so hard (inside) during the whole study because it was like God was telling me every single thing that Id been through. Like, oh man. It was nuts. At this point I feel a bit spiritually exhausted. And I hurt, so I took 2 vykadin (sp?) and Im about to go to sleep, or atleast try.
On a side note, I met baby Ethan two times! Heidi and Jason came to Roots and I saw them at the BBall game. I missed them a lot. Also, we might be having mini missions in Chicago during the winter. Were praying about it but I hope things work out. Crystal got 3 jobs.. Panera Bread, Big Straw, and Jewel.. She chose Jewel and is trying to get me the Big Straw job. We'll see. well, Like I said, I hurt so Im heading out.