Ode to Winter Break

Well today is the first official day of winter break. I got up at 9:30 and now I dont know what to do. I plan to read the bible every day during the break (though I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to read) but I am set on doing it. Also I am going to be reading through "No Perfect People Allowed." We just did a study at Ecclesia called 'No Perfect People' and it was about how people in the bible weren't perfect and we shouldn't be trying to live up to this expectation of perfection that we or society has set for us. They got the idea from this book which is written by post-modernists so I'm going to read it for more information. I am also reading a book called "Uglies" which was recommended by Stephenie Meyer (she wrote 'Twilight" and "New Moon" and I LOVE those books). Uglies is about a place where people are made beautiful at the age of 16 but until then they are ugly. They even separate the uglies from the pretties by separate towns, so it's real interesting so far. As of yet it does not compare to "Twilight" which is about vampires but it's still been a good read so far. Actually, I'm just glad to be reading again because basically all the books I've read in the last many months have been for school.

So, I'm in love with this band called "Red Jumpsuit Apparatus." My friend, Chrissie, introduced me to them and I cant stop listening, they're addictive. This song called "Your Guardian Angel" is amazing because the song seems to coincide with "Twilight" Anyway, that's the soundtrack I've been listening most to lately. I'm sure all this useless information is enthralling.

So in small group we all made a covenant about something we wanted to work on. I said I wanted to work on being better at socializing and valuing my relationships with people because that is something I've never been good at and community is something the bible stresses as very important. We made the covenant over two months ago and I realized last week that I haven’t don’t much of anything to work at it. I noticed my lack of effort when I realized that the opposite has sort of happened - I've lost or found that many of my friendships are weakened. I don’t know why, for many different reasons I guess but it's still a fact. I don't hang out with people anymore and, I suppose, that's why I have time to actually read for pleasure. It’s been great to have some time but I also know that I need friends right now. I need people to talk to, especially right now as it's Hanukah and as Christmas approaches. It is really easy for me, and Crystal, to fall into depression and a friends accountability probably wouldn't hurt, but it's not there for me.

So, that’s really I have to say for now. Oh, and also that I got into Roosevelt University. And I got a 24 on my ACT – I wanted a 26 so I’m disappointed but whatev, it is what it is.