What!?
So, the internet is still here, for whatever reason, Im glad. Now watch, right when I get into doing something fun online, it will go away! I had the weirdest dream last night. We were having a party at Megans house, and um, Jackie, Julia, Jill, Megan, Melissa,Cherise, Emanuel, Tiffany, Crystal, Peter, and I were there. And some other people I dont recall. And, me and Peter didnt talk, because it was awkward...so, then, he said Hi, and I said hi. Then, he said to me that he liked a new girl, and she liked him, so it was all great. I was like.."oh..okay" and what. (--what is my word...just an expression.)
But anyway, the next thing I know, Im coming downstairs in my new outfit. I walk outside, and they are having a water hose fight..Jackie holds it up, and sprays me..I run inside, like a sissy..Normally, I would go get her back.. But anyway, it was weird. Also, in the dream, Megan had her boyfriend there, and so did Melissa, and Emanuel had a girlfriend at the party.
Oh well!
Life goes on! lol
A few nights ago I was talking to myself..heres what i said.
Me #1:So, I was like Dude!
And she was like, duuude!
so I was like..dude..
and she goes, nah dude!
so we look at eachother,
and we go...sweet!
yes, I am a skitso. ^_^
Thursday, August 14, 2003
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
What went wrong?
So......
My downstairs neighbor said she feels soooo sorry for me and CJ. She cant really seem to believe that we've been so...patient, with ourselves all summer. Shannon cant believe were not living with Mom...Me? It's hard, I admit, but me and CJ have gone through stuff like this before...
-The night that triggered the divorce
-Dad broke his hip
-Dad lost his job_s
-Grant was stolen
and just, all that other good stuff. I also admit, this is the worst so far, starting January, and still going on in August, but...I dont know.
I mean, if life kicks me in the butt one time, its the worlds fault. If it kicks me in the butt again, its my fault. All we can do is blame ourselves for the stuff that has happened to us.
I wonder though, do we choose whether we have a perfect life, or is it just by chance?
So......
My downstairs neighbor said she feels soooo sorry for me and CJ. She cant really seem to believe that we've been so...patient, with ourselves all summer. Shannon cant believe were not living with Mom...Me? It's hard, I admit, but me and CJ have gone through stuff like this before...
-The night that triggered the divorce
-Dad broke his hip
-Dad lost his job_s
-Grant was stolen
and just, all that other good stuff. I also admit, this is the worst so far, starting January, and still going on in August, but...I dont know.
I mean, if life kicks me in the butt one time, its the worlds fault. If it kicks me in the butt again, its my fault. All we can do is blame ourselves for the stuff that has happened to us.
I wonder though, do we choose whether we have a perfect life, or is it just by chance?
Broken down
Okay, so, we went shopping with Mom today. I got some new jeans, and a BLACK HOODIE! Boom Baby, a new hoodie! lol. Um, so, on our way home, Mom bought us Subway. When we were leaving, her car wouldnt start. So, we ate it in the car, but even after we finished, it still wouldnt start. So, we sat outside for a half hour while Mom went and called a tow truck. When Mom came back, and said the tow truck was on its way, me and Crystal said we were walking home. And we did. We walked 2 miles, in 90 degree weather! I'm so tired at this point. Then, when Mom got home, she called us (to make sure we were okay), then Dad, and asked to use his truck. He said yes, so she road her bike over here, and got the truck. :;sigh:: Mom has got the truck again...
Also, we got the mail today. Hoffman sent me a letter, saying the Doctor didnt fill out my blood pressure, and that they couldnt send me my schedule and crap unless they got it. So, tomorrow, Crystal has to call the doctor, figure out what it was (because we know they took it) and then, on Friday, we have to go to Hoffman and give them the imformation again, hopefully, at that point we'll get my schedule!
Okay, so, we went shopping with Mom today. I got some new jeans, and a BLACK HOODIE! Boom Baby, a new hoodie! lol. Um, so, on our way home, Mom bought us Subway. When we were leaving, her car wouldnt start. So, we ate it in the car, but even after we finished, it still wouldnt start. So, we sat outside for a half hour while Mom went and called a tow truck. When Mom came back, and said the tow truck was on its way, me and Crystal said we were walking home. And we did. We walked 2 miles, in 90 degree weather! I'm so tired at this point. Then, when Mom got home, she called us (to make sure we were okay), then Dad, and asked to use his truck. He said yes, so she road her bike over here, and got the truck. :;sigh:: Mom has got the truck again...
Also, we got the mail today. Hoffman sent me a letter, saying the Doctor didnt fill out my blood pressure, and that they couldnt send me my schedule and crap unless they got it. So, tomorrow, Crystal has to call the doctor, figure out what it was (because we know they took it) and then, on Friday, we have to go to Hoffman and give them the imformation again, hopefully, at that point we'll get my schedule!
Mid-morning blues
So, tonight at midnight, were supposed to love the internet. Frankly, it doesnt seem like that big of a deal anymore. I dont talk to many people anymore, and whoever I do, we dont have much else to talk about.
I called Peter today, but nobody answered. I just wanted to see whats up, and how hes doing. He hasnt been online in forever! I mean, I only let it ring 3 times, but thats legit...Oh well. Thats life.
Dad didnt come up. He just stopped here, Crystal brought him down a bag of the things he needs, and then he left. That was it. I didnt really expect more, but all the same.
I was arguing with Jackie M today, from school. She was my locker partner, and she IM'd me, and asked who I was crushing on. I told her I used to have a crush on Peter, and she said eww. She said he was dumb, and I said actually, hes really smart, because he is. Then, she continued in saying she thought I hated all the guys at Addams. I was like "Dude, my best friend is a guy!" and shes like, oh, emanuel...eww. I told her me and him dated for like, a day, and she said eww, again. She thinks because her friend dated him, she knows him so well. REALITY CHECK, she doesnt. but oh well, I stuck up for him, I went as far as to admit that he got cute at the end of this year! ^_^
Nip/Tuck today was crazy. And next week looks even crazier. It's like Charmed week though! On Friday, I watched 90210 reunion on FOX, on Saturday, Body Count was on FX, Monday, Alyssa Milano on Intimate Portrait on Lifetime, Tuesday, Nip/Tuck on FX, and Julian McMahon on the Orlando Jones show, and Charmed on TNT. And on this Saturday, Holly Marie Combs in See Jane Date!
KICK BUTT! This is so awesome!
Later today, probably around noon, Im going out with Mom to get a new outfit for school. I fully intend to get a new hoodie and some black jeans, and a t-shirt! But we'll see. Im also buying the Freaky Friday soundtrack. Good stuff.
So, until the next time Im able to post about the pathetic-ness of my life, keep it real my people!
So, tonight at midnight, were supposed to love the internet. Frankly, it doesnt seem like that big of a deal anymore. I dont talk to many people anymore, and whoever I do, we dont have much else to talk about.
I called Peter today, but nobody answered. I just wanted to see whats up, and how hes doing. He hasnt been online in forever! I mean, I only let it ring 3 times, but thats legit...Oh well. Thats life.
Dad didnt come up. He just stopped here, Crystal brought him down a bag of the things he needs, and then he left. That was it. I didnt really expect more, but all the same.
I was arguing with Jackie M today, from school. She was my locker partner, and she IM'd me, and asked who I was crushing on. I told her I used to have a crush on Peter, and she said eww. She said he was dumb, and I said actually, hes really smart, because he is. Then, she continued in saying she thought I hated all the guys at Addams. I was like "Dude, my best friend is a guy!" and shes like, oh, emanuel...eww. I told her me and him dated for like, a day, and she said eww, again. She thinks because her friend dated him, she knows him so well. REALITY CHECK, she doesnt. but oh well, I stuck up for him, I went as far as to admit that he got cute at the end of this year! ^_^
Nip/Tuck today was crazy. And next week looks even crazier. It's like Charmed week though! On Friday, I watched 90210 reunion on FOX, on Saturday, Body Count was on FX, Monday, Alyssa Milano on Intimate Portrait on Lifetime, Tuesday, Nip/Tuck on FX, and Julian McMahon on the Orlando Jones show, and Charmed on TNT. And on this Saturday, Holly Marie Combs in See Jane Date!
KICK BUTT! This is so awesome!
Later today, probably around noon, Im going out with Mom to get a new outfit for school. I fully intend to get a new hoodie and some black jeans, and a t-shirt! But we'll see. Im also buying the Freaky Friday soundtrack. Good stuff.
So, until the next time Im able to post about the pathetic-ness of my life, keep it real my people!
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
Goodbye my Online
So, we only have the internet for 2 more days. CompuServe is trying to say we owe them $300.00, and we dont. Even if we did, we cant afford that. So, we are getting rid of it in 2 days. After that, we have to try to find a new internet company. So, once a week, me and Crystal are going to try and go to the library and get online to check updates on websites, and update ours. Heh.
I found out my orientation is the 21st and 22nd. Im probably going the 21st. I hope to see Kim B. there, and maybe some other people. ^_^
And then, Dad called at 9:30pm tonight, and was mad at me, CJ woke me up, and he said I have to get offline at 12:00!! Yeah, right. We have 2 days left of internet, and he expects me to get off that early. Just because yesterday I stayed on until 5:00 am. He even said I can stay up as late as I want, just not online. So, tomorrow, CJ is waking me up at 10:00 am, actually today, since its 1:50am. But, oh well. Dad is stopping home to get a few things before he goes to the nursing home. ::sigh:: And then, he was asking about the Atkins Diet. I told him, no carbs. He asked about my grapefruit juice, and I said no, sugar and fruit...He was acting like he knew it all, he said just cutting down on bread would do it..Oh well, whatever.
So, we only have the internet for 2 more days. CompuServe is trying to say we owe them $300.00, and we dont. Even if we did, we cant afford that. So, we are getting rid of it in 2 days. After that, we have to try to find a new internet company. So, once a week, me and Crystal are going to try and go to the library and get online to check updates on websites, and update ours. Heh.
I found out my orientation is the 21st and 22nd. Im probably going the 21st. I hope to see Kim B. there, and maybe some other people. ^_^
And then, Dad called at 9:30pm tonight, and was mad at me, CJ woke me up, and he said I have to get offline at 12:00!! Yeah, right. We have 2 days left of internet, and he expects me to get off that early. Just because yesterday I stayed on until 5:00 am. He even said I can stay up as late as I want, just not online. So, tomorrow, CJ is waking me up at 10:00 am, actually today, since its 1:50am. But, oh well. Dad is stopping home to get a few things before he goes to the nursing home. ::sigh:: And then, he was asking about the Atkins Diet. I told him, no carbs. He asked about my grapefruit juice, and I said no, sugar and fruit...He was acting like he knew it all, he said just cutting down on bread would do it..Oh well, whatever.
Sunday, August 10, 2003
After a long await, a good mood comes.
So today was good. This morning, Church was really funny. It was about sex and lust and things like that. They told us about this billboard with Hooters, and these sleezy woman on it, and it said "Made ya' look." Me personally, I found the concept funny, but I know its wrong. And apparantly nobody else found it funny since I was the only one was laughed.
After church, me and crystal were home for an hour or two, then Crystal called Jackie and then, Jackie picked us up, and we went to her house. At 5:15, Jackie, Julia, Jacob, Tony, Crystal, Melissa, and I went to see Freaky Friday. It was really good. We all seemed to like it alot.
So, after that, we went back to Jackie, Julias, and Jacobs house, and hung out for an hour, while Julia got dressed like a "punk." And Dan came over too. So, after that, we went out to eat. It was funny. Lots of jokes. Good times. Then, we went to the icecream place, and Crystal got a smoothie. We sat in the parking lot for awhile. I talked about shoes in the street...lol. But then we had to go home, so Julia drove us. On the way home, I asked her about "gays" and christianity. I didnt get why it was so frowned upon..I didnt get why a gay person couldnt be a christian, and I found it wrong...But, she explained it, and after she did, it all clicked. We talked about a few other things, and it clicked. I like the way she explains things, because she doesnt make the "asker" feel stupid, like giving the "oh-you-should-have-known-look." Which is good.
And Dan wasnt mean today. I didnt really talk to him, I never actually have, but just, the few times I did talk to him, he seemed rude and like a hypocrite. But today, (even though we didnt talk) he didnt make a rude comment about me, which was nice. Lol, he only did once, as a joke, but hey, I take offence.
Overall, I feel really good tonight.
Me and Eman are talking right now, best buds. Lol, if he reads this, he'll think "Hah! Yeah right.." ^_^. Were both like, way closer than we ever were before. Im so glad! YIPPEE!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yeah...so, whatchu' doin' now?
beyonddeath82: i dont know
beyonddeath82: im sitting down talking to you
XXCrimsonCryXX: Oh....okay.
XXCrimsonCryXX: Poor you.
beyonddeath82: []
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::hugs:: []
beyonddeath82: ::feels alot better::[]
XXCrimsonCryXX: [] Good good.
beyonddeath82: this is great
XXCrimsonCryXX: What is?
beyonddeath82: usualy when best friends go out break up and try to become friends again it never works... but we've never been closer
beyonddeath82: i love it
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yeah, me too.
beyonddeath82: so its good all that happend
XXCrimsonCryXX: Tis true, you were right again.
beyonddeath82: its one of those i love you as a friend
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yes, and as Im sure, and hope you know, I love you as a friend too.
beyonddeath82: awsome
Isnt that great!? It's so great. Lol. Well, Im all out of things to babble about, not really. I never am. But all the same, right now, Life is Good!
Well, oh yeah. There was something else I wanted to type. This dream I was kinda' telling her about. Over dinner. I just didnt tell her because I didnt want to say it to the whole table, too many eyes watching.
So, in the dream:
I am kneeling before this dark, slender thing and it is standing on this stage. About 6 inches off the ground. The room is dark, the only light is that of a few dim lit candles spread around the stage. The dark hooded thing looked toward me, and said bluntly "You Father will die." Next part of the dream, Im walking into our home, from the front door. I walk into the house, and yell out "Hey Dad" But nobody answers. I walk into the kitchen, where Dad always is when I get home from school. But this time, hes not there. I walk into his room, and hes still in bed from that morning. I walk closer to the bed, and call at him to get up. I have the feeling in my heart that something is wrong. I shake him lightly, they I find myself shaking him crazily, to get him to wake up, but he wont. He was dead. Crystal was still at school, so I was left, laying on his floor, in his room, crying. Then, the dream kinda' zoomed out, as if it were a movie, zooming out at the end. I woke up, and let out a scream kinda'. I started crying..The next week, Dad went to the hospital.
So then, a month or so after that dream, I had another just like it. Except this time, the dark hooded thing said "Your sister will die, just as your Dad, then it will continue." I woke up after that, but it was really scary. I thought Dad and Crystal and Mom would die, and I would be alone. I told Crystal about the dreams, and she was freaked out too.
So today was good. This morning, Church was really funny. It was about sex and lust and things like that. They told us about this billboard with Hooters, and these sleezy woman on it, and it said "Made ya' look." Me personally, I found the concept funny, but I know its wrong. And apparantly nobody else found it funny since I was the only one was laughed.
After church, me and crystal were home for an hour or two, then Crystal called Jackie and then, Jackie picked us up, and we went to her house. At 5:15, Jackie, Julia, Jacob, Tony, Crystal, Melissa, and I went to see Freaky Friday. It was really good. We all seemed to like it alot.
So, after that, we went back to Jackie, Julias, and Jacobs house, and hung out for an hour, while Julia got dressed like a "punk." And Dan came over too. So, after that, we went out to eat. It was funny. Lots of jokes. Good times. Then, we went to the icecream place, and Crystal got a smoothie. We sat in the parking lot for awhile. I talked about shoes in the street...lol. But then we had to go home, so Julia drove us. On the way home, I asked her about "gays" and christianity. I didnt get why it was so frowned upon..I didnt get why a gay person couldnt be a christian, and I found it wrong...But, she explained it, and after she did, it all clicked. We talked about a few other things, and it clicked. I like the way she explains things, because she doesnt make the "asker" feel stupid, like giving the "oh-you-should-have-known-look." Which is good.
And Dan wasnt mean today. I didnt really talk to him, I never actually have, but just, the few times I did talk to him, he seemed rude and like a hypocrite. But today, (even though we didnt talk) he didnt make a rude comment about me, which was nice. Lol, he only did once, as a joke, but hey, I take offence.
Overall, I feel really good tonight.
Me and Eman are talking right now, best buds. Lol, if he reads this, he'll think "Hah! Yeah right.." ^_^. Were both like, way closer than we ever were before. Im so glad! YIPPEE!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yeah...so, whatchu' doin' now?
beyonddeath82: i dont know
beyonddeath82: im sitting down talking to you
XXCrimsonCryXX: Oh....okay.
XXCrimsonCryXX: Poor you.
beyonddeath82: []
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::hugs:: []
beyonddeath82: ::feels alot better::[]
XXCrimsonCryXX: [] Good good.
beyonddeath82: this is great
XXCrimsonCryXX: What is?
beyonddeath82: usualy when best friends go out break up and try to become friends again it never works... but we've never been closer
beyonddeath82: i love it
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yeah, me too.
beyonddeath82: so its good all that happend
XXCrimsonCryXX: Tis true, you were right again.
beyonddeath82: its one of those i love you as a friend
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yes, and as Im sure, and hope you know, I love you as a friend too.
beyonddeath82: awsome
Isnt that great!? It's so great. Lol. Well, Im all out of things to babble about, not really. I never am. But all the same, right now, Life is Good!
Well, oh yeah. There was something else I wanted to type. This dream I was kinda' telling her about. Over dinner. I just didnt tell her because I didnt want to say it to the whole table, too many eyes watching.
So, in the dream:
I am kneeling before this dark, slender thing and it is standing on this stage. About 6 inches off the ground. The room is dark, the only light is that of a few dim lit candles spread around the stage. The dark hooded thing looked toward me, and said bluntly "You Father will die." Next part of the dream, Im walking into our home, from the front door. I walk into the house, and yell out "Hey Dad" But nobody answers. I walk into the kitchen, where Dad always is when I get home from school. But this time, hes not there. I walk into his room, and hes still in bed from that morning. I walk closer to the bed, and call at him to get up. I have the feeling in my heart that something is wrong. I shake him lightly, they I find myself shaking him crazily, to get him to wake up, but he wont. He was dead. Crystal was still at school, so I was left, laying on his floor, in his room, crying. Then, the dream kinda' zoomed out, as if it were a movie, zooming out at the end. I woke up, and let out a scream kinda'. I started crying..The next week, Dad went to the hospital.
So then, a month or so after that dream, I had another just like it. Except this time, the dark hooded thing said "Your sister will die, just as your Dad, then it will continue." I woke up after that, but it was really scary. I thought Dad and Crystal and Mom would die, and I would be alone. I told Crystal about the dreams, and she was freaked out too.
Thursday, August 07, 2003
Goodness. I am trying so hard to not snap right now. My head has been throbbing all day! Since like, 20 minutes after I woke up. Then the stupid dentist was so...not nice! So, my mouth hurts. And my throat is really sore. I feel like Im going to throw up. And to top it off, Crystal is getting on my nerves. I mean, I told her that Blagoyavitch (definately spelled wrong) -our govenor- made tongue splitting illegal, because I found it funny that someone would actually cut their tongue. Then, she starts acting like its a big deal, taking away free will...and that if someone wants to cut their tongue in half to look like a snake, so be it. IT WAS TO MAKE HER LAUGH!!! Geez.
And I havent written a poem in forever it feels like. I dont know what to write about. I feel like I've overdone this alone, like sucks, I wanna' die thing. And I wrote a few poems about God, but since I did, I havent gotten much of any feedback on my site. I dont know.
So, everything lately makes me want to cry. Some of it isnt even sad, I think my emotions are running very high right now, heh.
I want to shut down like all my sites because it seems like nobody goes to them. But, I love making my sites...I think the fact that nobody goes to my site doesnt make me want to update as much as possible anymore. Is there even a point?
I made a new site. It have my fan fiction on it.
A Fans Fiction -my site-
And even though I know that nobody is going there, I like to have a place to put my stories, and marvel in my work! LEAVE ME ALONE! -skitso me-
And I havent written a poem in forever it feels like. I dont know what to write about. I feel like I've overdone this alone, like sucks, I wanna' die thing. And I wrote a few poems about God, but since I did, I havent gotten much of any feedback on my site. I dont know.
So, everything lately makes me want to cry. Some of it isnt even sad, I think my emotions are running very high right now, heh.
I want to shut down like all my sites because it seems like nobody goes to them. But, I love making my sites...I think the fact that nobody goes to my site doesnt make me want to update as much as possible anymore. Is there even a point?
I made a new site. It have my fan fiction on it.
A Fans Fiction -my site-
And even though I know that nobody is going there, I like to have a place to put my stories, and marvel in my work! LEAVE ME ALONE! -skitso me-
Sunday, August 03, 2003
Sick
So I slept over at Megans all weekend. It was fun. I insulted her music very often. Lol. I dont think she minded that much though. And on the 1st of September, I think thats the Sunday, well, Im gragging her and her sister, Melissa, to my Church. Melissa doesnt mind, I think she wants to, but Megan, well, I dont think she wants to at all. But, too bad! Hehe. So it was fun on Friday night we called Emanuel and kinda' messed with his head. Him and Megan flirt alot... And they talk about...odd things. Its funny. I didnt say much on the phone. But at the end of the conversation I told him Megan liked him, and he says "Well, you know how bad it gets when friends date." LOL! That was funny. And then, when her Dad was driving me home this morning, my downstairs neighbor had dead-bolted the door, so I was locked out! I had to go to breakfast with them, and then to their Dads house. It wasnt bad, but I felt bad. Having to tag along and all. They didnt seem to mind, but I really dont know.
Um, yeah. But now, Im sick. I have a small fever. My head hurts sooo bad. Its pounding. Right when I got home, I took a shower, then took a 5 hour nap...hehe. Im still really tired.
Well, Dad is okay. Tomorrow he has a GI test. (Gastric Intestine). I dont know what that does. Something like, seeing whats stopping something. ::sigh:: I hope so bad that hes out by the time school starts. He told the doctors that. He said he also wants to do something with us for atleast the end of summer. :-But yeah. Im tired, and sick of typing. I dont know what else to say.
Oh yeah! Friday afternoon, the hail was sweet! It was 1 inch diameter! Beautiful! Crystal went out in it, with the umbrella...it went inside out..Lol. So she was pelted in the head with the hail. Good times.
So I slept over at Megans all weekend. It was fun. I insulted her music very often. Lol. I dont think she minded that much though. And on the 1st of September, I think thats the Sunday, well, Im gragging her and her sister, Melissa, to my Church. Melissa doesnt mind, I think she wants to, but Megan, well, I dont think she wants to at all. But, too bad! Hehe. So it was fun on Friday night we called Emanuel and kinda' messed with his head. Him and Megan flirt alot... And they talk about...odd things. Its funny. I didnt say much on the phone. But at the end of the conversation I told him Megan liked him, and he says "Well, you know how bad it gets when friends date." LOL! That was funny. And then, when her Dad was driving me home this morning, my downstairs neighbor had dead-bolted the door, so I was locked out! I had to go to breakfast with them, and then to their Dads house. It wasnt bad, but I felt bad. Having to tag along and all. They didnt seem to mind, but I really dont know.
Um, yeah. But now, Im sick. I have a small fever. My head hurts sooo bad. Its pounding. Right when I got home, I took a shower, then took a 5 hour nap...hehe. Im still really tired.
Well, Dad is okay. Tomorrow he has a GI test. (Gastric Intestine). I dont know what that does. Something like, seeing whats stopping something. ::sigh:: I hope so bad that hes out by the time school starts. He told the doctors that. He said he also wants to do something with us for atleast the end of summer. :-But yeah. Im tired, and sick of typing. I dont know what else to say.
Oh yeah! Friday afternoon, the hail was sweet! It was 1 inch diameter! Beautiful! Crystal went out in it, with the umbrella...it went inside out..Lol. So she was pelted in the head with the hail. Good times.
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
I am so worried about Dad. He has a fever and was apparantly throwing up all day. He was too weak, or, out of it, to talk at all today. I dont know. But Im also worried about the fact that he most likely wont be better by the time school starts. In less than a month! I mean, if hes not, me and Crystal have to leave the house at 5:45 in the AM!!! It will just really stink. I hope so bad that Dad gets better by then.
Im glad that me and Megan are friends again. And Emanuel, Im glad hes not mad at me. lol. It was funny in this chatroom, me and this girl, Sarah, (Emanuels friend) were fighting. She had held a grudge against me for like, 6 months, because my friend called her a poser, and I laughed. Oh well, I found it funny.
So, life has been so boring lately. There is nothing to talk about anymore. And it stinks.
Im glad that me and Megan are friends again. And Emanuel, Im glad hes not mad at me. lol. It was funny in this chatroom, me and this girl, Sarah, (Emanuels friend) were fighting. She had held a grudge against me for like, 6 months, because my friend called her a poser, and I laughed. Oh well, I found it funny.
So, life has been so boring lately. There is nothing to talk about anymore. And it stinks.
Sunday, July 27, 2003
So I went to church, and it was pretty cool. After church James asked everyone if we wanted to go to his house for a BBQ. I didnt, because I was tired, but Jill and Jackie said I had to, so I said fine, I'll go. But at the last minute, their mom, my aunt kathy, said forget it...And my mom had already left, so my cousin Julia had to drive us home, which is such a burden.. I know. And then, I get home, and Dads gone already. He had to go back to the hospital...We found out when Crystal called him from Church to tell him about the BBQ. Anyway, hes gone now, and we dont even know how he got there. I dont know how severe his condition is. I for one though he was doing better. So now Im just so..mad! I dont want to be mad, but Im mad that my Dad is still not better, and Im mad that my first year of highschool is now going to be messed up because of this..I dont get to ride the bus like normal kids..If I do, my Dad has to drive me to the bus stop! I cant ever really make close friends because I cant hang out after school and stuff. ::long sigh:: Oh well...this is my life..
And Emanuel has gotten me so stressed...I want to be his friend! What I dont get is why he didnt tell anyone else about his brother...Megan had no idea, and neither did Tiffany...And then he says he has to think about it!!!!!! Made me so mad..I thought I meant more to him than this..I guess not.
And he just IM'd me, said he thought about it, lets see what he says.
beyonddeath82: i've thought about it
XXCrimsonCryXX: OKay
XXCrimsonCryXX: And?
beyonddeath82: i never want to see you again
XXCrimsonCryXX: what?!
beyonddeath82: kidding
beyonddeath82: i want to be friends again
XXCrimsonCryXX: Good...but how come you had to think about it?
beyonddeath82: i had to go to bed
XXCrimsonCryXX: I see
(So this is it..Im still kinda' hurt that he had to think..and things are alot different now..but..atleast were friends, right?!)
Right now, all Im concerened about is Dad...should I be worried?
And Emanuel has gotten me so stressed...I want to be his friend! What I dont get is why he didnt tell anyone else about his brother...Megan had no idea, and neither did Tiffany...And then he says he has to think about it!!!!!! Made me so mad..I thought I meant more to him than this..I guess not.
And he just IM'd me, said he thought about it, lets see what he says.
beyonddeath82: i've thought about it
XXCrimsonCryXX: OKay
XXCrimsonCryXX: And?
beyonddeath82: i never want to see you again
XXCrimsonCryXX: what?!
beyonddeath82: kidding
beyonddeath82: i want to be friends again
XXCrimsonCryXX: Good...but how come you had to think about it?
beyonddeath82: i had to go to bed
XXCrimsonCryXX: I see
(So this is it..Im still kinda' hurt that he had to think..and things are alot different now..but..atleast were friends, right?!)
Right now, all Im concerened about is Dad...should I be worried?
Ouch!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Hey..you dont have to talk..but I'm sorry about Tiffany and Megan interrogating you..or whatever it was they said. but...I dont know..I dont know why Im sorry...but...I am...Ill tell them to leave you alone, as I am..Its just they were mad because I was hurt..but oh well..So..Um, Bye..I guess
beyonddeath82: no bye
XXCrimsonCryXX: ...?
beyonddeath82: i dont even know what you tripping about
XXCrimsonCryXX: What? Im not tripping.....what are you talking about?
beyonddeath82: i havent been talking to you because i've been busy
XXCrimsonCryXX: Its not only that..........if you ever listened to someone for a change, you'd have known
beyonddeath82: well im sorry
XXCrimsonCryXX: How can you be sorry?! You dont even know what Im mad about
beyonddeath82: well you know im got alot in my head right now
XXCrimsonCryXX: As if I dont?!
beyonddeath82: well is your brother dieing
beyonddeath82: yeah he has 2 weeks
beyonddeath82: ok
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay. And I said sorry, and I tried to be there for you numerous times..but all you do is push me away..and My Dad is still dying! GEEZ!
beyonddeath82: now tell me whats the matter
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, as I said..Im trying to be here for you...and well, you dont want me to I guess..and you rudely tell me your looking for a g/f..and your just being a jerk, which is completely understandle..but..I dont know
XXCrimsonCryXX: understandable*
beyonddeath82: i want you there desperatly but im not use to having ppl on my side and im sorry for that and your right i do want a gurl friend. someone who can care for me above it all. thats pritty much it but if im being a " jerk " thats not my problem
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay.....I dont have much to say to that
beyonddeath82: really now
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yes, really...
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::sigh::
XXCrimsonCryXX: Alright..well, sorry..
beyonddeath82: its not your fault
XXCrimsonCryXX: Apparantly it is.
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay then...good luck on the g/f search...and, Im sorry about your brother.. (theres not much I can say to make you feel better) and..I suppose thats it..
beyonddeath82: one more thing
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay..
beyonddeath82: im sorry about your father
XXCrimsonCryXX: Hes doing okay now..kinda...but dont worry about it, its not of your concern..
beyonddeath82: for your information i am concerned about him
beyonddeath82: i dont want anyone to die
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, dont be.
beyonddeath82: my god
XXCrimsonCryXX: What?!
beyonddeath82: im being a jerk
XXCrimsonCryXX: No
XXCrimsonCryXX: Not right now
beyonddeath82: no yuo
XXCrimsonCryXX: I am. Okay? yes, Im the selfish, bitch! I KNOW! Geez. Im the herk
beyonddeath82: i show the slitest compassion and you turn it around in my face
XXCrimsonCryXX: jerk*
XXCrimsonCryXX: No
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, yes I did.
XXCrimsonCryXX: But Escuse me for being hurt for like a freaking week, and still being a bit mad!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Listen..I didnt mean to be a bitch..Im sorry...
beyonddeath82: no
XXCrimsonCryXX: No..what?
beyonddeath82: it doesnt matter how hard i try to make things right to anyone. they all just take my sorries and shit like that and kick me in the ass with them
XXCrimsonCryXX: Thats not what Im trying to do Emanuel.
XXCrimsonCryXX: I just thought that you didnt want to be my friend anymore..I kinda thought you liked Megan..Im sorry.
beyonddeath82: no
beyonddeath82: i did awile ago
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, I thought you did recently..
beyonddeath82: no
beyonddeath82: what the hell gave you that idea
XXCrimsonCryXX: My paranoid self...
beyonddeath82: plus you know megan has a b/f
XXCrimsonCryXX: I know.
XXCrimsonCryXX: But they are going to be only friends...I figured you knew
beyonddeath82: why would that matter if i liked her anyway
XXCrimsonCryXX: I dont think that matters...why it would matter..
beyonddeath82: exactly
XXCrimsonCryXX: Exactly what?
beyonddeath82: I DONT KNOW
XXCrimsonCryXX: I mean its not of your concern as to why it would matter ot me if you liked Megan! geez
XXCrimsonCryXX: to*
beyonddeath82: ok
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay then...
XXCrimsonCryXX: Are we still friends, or not?
beyonddeath82: i dont even know anymore
XXCrimsonCryXX: Do you even want to be?
beyonddeath82: i do
XXCrimsonCryXX: So do I..
beyonddeath82: and again i'll say this
beyonddeath82: i want to be your friend forever
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay..so, how about we just forget this last conversation ever happened? And..be friends?
beyonddeath82: you can say that but it will always be in your head
beyonddeath82: just knowing that it did really happen
XXCrimsonCryXX: Tis true..
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, what do you purpose we do about it then?
beyonddeath82: i dont know
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well...we could not be friends...be friends...or..just..pretend were friends but never really talk..as weve been doing for awhile..
beyonddeath82: god i need to think
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::blink:: oh..um..okay
XXCrimsonCryXX: Ouch..Well...um...just, IM me or something when you have a..decision then...
beyonddeath82: give me your email address
XXCrimsonCryXX: XXCrimsonCryXX@cs.com
beyonddeath82: well im going now
XXCrimsonCryXX: Alright...um..bye then..
beyonddeath82: bye and good night
XXCrimsonCryXX: night
(Conversation with Emanuel today...)
Im glad though, because me and Megan are talking again, and everything is out in the open. Its cool. We are hanging out later this week. And I made a new friend. I think her name is Ashley. Shes cool. And I am really upset about Emanuel because that really was not cool. ::shakes head:: not cool...But I had fun at Aunt jennys...Me and Jill hung out all day, and in 5 hours Im supposed to get up for church..lol. And I feel so sick, I know...Im going to barf so soon.. And Isabel is so cute! But Mom didnt go with. She was too tired or something, and we dont actually have a ride to church, because she worked tonight and might be too tired..
XXCrimsonCryXX: Hey..you dont have to talk..but I'm sorry about Tiffany and Megan interrogating you..or whatever it was they said. but...I dont know..I dont know why Im sorry...but...I am...Ill tell them to leave you alone, as I am..Its just they were mad because I was hurt..but oh well..So..Um, Bye..I guess
beyonddeath82: no bye
XXCrimsonCryXX: ...?
beyonddeath82: i dont even know what you tripping about
XXCrimsonCryXX: What? Im not tripping.....what are you talking about?
beyonddeath82: i havent been talking to you because i've been busy
XXCrimsonCryXX: Its not only that..........if you ever listened to someone for a change, you'd have known
beyonddeath82: well im sorry
XXCrimsonCryXX: How can you be sorry?! You dont even know what Im mad about
beyonddeath82: well you know im got alot in my head right now
XXCrimsonCryXX: As if I dont?!
beyonddeath82: well is your brother dieing
beyonddeath82: yeah he has 2 weeks
beyonddeath82: ok
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay. And I said sorry, and I tried to be there for you numerous times..but all you do is push me away..and My Dad is still dying! GEEZ!
beyonddeath82: now tell me whats the matter
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, as I said..Im trying to be here for you...and well, you dont want me to I guess..and you rudely tell me your looking for a g/f..and your just being a jerk, which is completely understandle..but..I dont know
XXCrimsonCryXX: understandable*
beyonddeath82: i want you there desperatly but im not use to having ppl on my side and im sorry for that and your right i do want a gurl friend. someone who can care for me above it all. thats pritty much it but if im being a " jerk " thats not my problem
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay.....I dont have much to say to that
beyonddeath82: really now
XXCrimsonCryXX: Yes, really...
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::sigh::
XXCrimsonCryXX: Alright..well, sorry..
beyonddeath82: its not your fault
XXCrimsonCryXX: Apparantly it is.
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay then...good luck on the g/f search...and, Im sorry about your brother.. (theres not much I can say to make you feel better) and..I suppose thats it..
beyonddeath82: one more thing
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay..
beyonddeath82: im sorry about your father
XXCrimsonCryXX: Hes doing okay now..kinda...but dont worry about it, its not of your concern..
beyonddeath82: for your information i am concerned about him
beyonddeath82: i dont want anyone to die
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, dont be.
beyonddeath82: my god
XXCrimsonCryXX: What?!
beyonddeath82: im being a jerk
XXCrimsonCryXX: No
XXCrimsonCryXX: Not right now
beyonddeath82: no yuo
XXCrimsonCryXX: I am. Okay? yes, Im the selfish, bitch! I KNOW! Geez. Im the herk
beyonddeath82: i show the slitest compassion and you turn it around in my face
XXCrimsonCryXX: jerk*
XXCrimsonCryXX: No
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, yes I did.
XXCrimsonCryXX: But Escuse me for being hurt for like a freaking week, and still being a bit mad!
XXCrimsonCryXX: Listen..I didnt mean to be a bitch..Im sorry...
beyonddeath82: no
XXCrimsonCryXX: No..what?
beyonddeath82: it doesnt matter how hard i try to make things right to anyone. they all just take my sorries and shit like that and kick me in the ass with them
XXCrimsonCryXX: Thats not what Im trying to do Emanuel.
XXCrimsonCryXX: I just thought that you didnt want to be my friend anymore..I kinda thought you liked Megan..Im sorry.
beyonddeath82: no
beyonddeath82: i did awile ago
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, I thought you did recently..
beyonddeath82: no
beyonddeath82: what the hell gave you that idea
XXCrimsonCryXX: My paranoid self...
beyonddeath82: plus you know megan has a b/f
XXCrimsonCryXX: I know.
XXCrimsonCryXX: But they are going to be only friends...I figured you knew
beyonddeath82: why would that matter if i liked her anyway
XXCrimsonCryXX: I dont think that matters...why it would matter..
beyonddeath82: exactly
XXCrimsonCryXX: Exactly what?
beyonddeath82: I DONT KNOW
XXCrimsonCryXX: I mean its not of your concern as to why it would matter ot me if you liked Megan! geez
XXCrimsonCryXX: to*
beyonddeath82: ok
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay then...
XXCrimsonCryXX: Are we still friends, or not?
beyonddeath82: i dont even know anymore
XXCrimsonCryXX: Do you even want to be?
beyonddeath82: i do
XXCrimsonCryXX: So do I..
beyonddeath82: and again i'll say this
beyonddeath82: i want to be your friend forever
XXCrimsonCryXX: Okay..so, how about we just forget this last conversation ever happened? And..be friends?
beyonddeath82: you can say that but it will always be in your head
beyonddeath82: just knowing that it did really happen
XXCrimsonCryXX: Tis true..
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well, what do you purpose we do about it then?
beyonddeath82: i dont know
XXCrimsonCryXX: Well...we could not be friends...be friends...or..just..pretend were friends but never really talk..as weve been doing for awhile..
beyonddeath82: god i need to think
XXCrimsonCryXX: ::blink:: oh..um..okay
XXCrimsonCryXX: Ouch..Well...um...just, IM me or something when you have a..decision then...
beyonddeath82: give me your email address
XXCrimsonCryXX: XXCrimsonCryXX@cs.com
beyonddeath82: well im going now
XXCrimsonCryXX: Alright...um..bye then..
beyonddeath82: bye and good night
XXCrimsonCryXX: night
(Conversation with Emanuel today...)
Im glad though, because me and Megan are talking again, and everything is out in the open. Its cool. We are hanging out later this week. And I made a new friend. I think her name is Ashley. Shes cool. And I am really upset about Emanuel because that really was not cool. ::shakes head:: not cool...But I had fun at Aunt jennys...Me and Jill hung out all day, and in 5 hours Im supposed to get up for church..lol. And I feel so sick, I know...Im going to barf so soon.. And Isabel is so cute! But Mom didnt go with. She was too tired or something, and we dont actually have a ride to church, because she worked tonight and might be too tired..
Saturday, July 26, 2003
Where's my friends?
It stinks that nobody knows, or dont remember, that today, 3 years ago, Grant was stolen. I went to sleep this morning at 6:00am and got up at 12:00. I had alot of trouble sleeping, and I had a dream about Grant. I also had a dream about Emanuel, but thats for me to know...Lol. So Aunt Kathy is coming here in a half hour to take us to aunt Jennys to see her NEW BEAUTIFUL PERFECT new house...With a Jacuzii (definately spelled incorrectly). And yeah. I dont want to go, because Jackie and Julia always harp at me to eat something, mostly Jackie. Dont they get that sometimes, Im just not hungry! Geez! Its so rude, and annoying. But oh well. I told Crystal that I think Megan and Emanuel want to get together, shes like "Forget them!" Because neither of them talk to me anymore, and even though Megan tries alot, we have nothing to talk about anymore...So it just sucks. I have nobody to talk to except Crystal. And we fight alot now. Forever Friend, WHERE ARE YOU?!
It stinks that nobody knows, or dont remember, that today, 3 years ago, Grant was stolen. I went to sleep this morning at 6:00am and got up at 12:00. I had alot of trouble sleeping, and I had a dream about Grant. I also had a dream about Emanuel, but thats for me to know...Lol. So Aunt Kathy is coming here in a half hour to take us to aunt Jennys to see her NEW BEAUTIFUL PERFECT new house...With a Jacuzii (definately spelled incorrectly). And yeah. I dont want to go, because Jackie and Julia always harp at me to eat something, mostly Jackie. Dont they get that sometimes, Im just not hungry! Geez! Its so rude, and annoying. But oh well. I told Crystal that I think Megan and Emanuel want to get together, shes like "Forget them!" Because neither of them talk to me anymore, and even though Megan tries alot, we have nothing to talk about anymore...So it just sucks. I have nobody to talk to except Crystal. And we fight alot now. Forever Friend, WHERE ARE YOU?!
Site Updating...
Oops! Havent updated in awhile...BECAUSE I made ALL these NEW sites...!
My Charmed site
My Shannen : Prue site
My Holly : Piper site
My Alyssa : Phoebe site
My Rose : Paige site
My Charmed Men site
My Gilmore Girls site
My Alexis : Rory site
My Lauren : Lorelai site
So aside from that, Emanuel is in search of a girlfriend..I have a feeling him and Megan kind of want to go out with eachother, but since i practically never talk to neither of them anymore, I dont intend to ask either of them. And as for Peter...well, theres nothing there. He is never online. And the last time he was, I said have a nice summer, meaning we probably wont talk all summer. And I doubt we'll talk if we ever see eachother in school. Since were both so paranoid, we wouldnt say "hi" even if we wanted too. But maybe, if I lose all the weight I intend to, he'll be in shock, and say Hi..lol. right. Yeah, I dont eat anymore...I did yesterday, and I made myself barf..Yuck, tasted bad. And we had no gum, I later found out, after regurgitating..Heh. Blah.
Oops! Havent updated in awhile...BECAUSE I made ALL these NEW sites...!
My Charmed site
My Shannen : Prue site
My Holly : Piper site
My Alyssa : Phoebe site
My Rose : Paige site
My Charmed Men site
My Gilmore Girls site
My Alexis : Rory site
My Lauren : Lorelai site
So aside from that, Emanuel is in search of a girlfriend..I have a feeling him and Megan kind of want to go out with eachother, but since i practically never talk to neither of them anymore, I dont intend to ask either of them. And as for Peter...well, theres nothing there. He is never online. And the last time he was, I said have a nice summer, meaning we probably wont talk all summer. And I doubt we'll talk if we ever see eachother in school. Since were both so paranoid, we wouldnt say "hi" even if we wanted too. But maybe, if I lose all the weight I intend to, he'll be in shock, and say Hi..lol. right. Yeah, I dont eat anymore...I did yesterday, and I made myself barf..Yuck, tasted bad. And we had no gum, I later found out, after regurgitating..Heh. Blah.
Monday, July 21, 2003
My new *Wish List*
1)Teen Witch -movie-
2)The Labyrinth -movie-
3)The Lost Boys -movie-
4)New Charmed Calander
5)GroundHogs Day -movie-
6)16 Candles -movie-
7)Happily Ever After -movie-
8)Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland -movie-
9)Forbidden Doors 9-12 -books-
10)A new journal
11)Mulan -movie-
12)More...
1)Teen Witch -movie-
2)The Labyrinth -movie-
3)The Lost Boys -movie-
4)New Charmed Calander
5)GroundHogs Day -movie-
6)16 Candles -movie-
7)Happily Ever After -movie-
8)Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland -movie-
9)Forbidden Doors 9-12 -books-
10)A new journal
11)Mulan -movie-
12)More...
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Friendless
So life has been pretty crazy lately.Dad came home yesterday...I feel like saying today, but its actually past midnight. Heh. But yeah. I went to youth group, and spent the day with Jackie, Jill, Dan (Jackie b/f) and Crystal. Dan is cool, but I think he hates me. Because, everyone was hot (tempature wise) and Crystal says to me "Geez Naomi, you look really hot." And Dan goes "I dont think she looks hot." Then Crystal was harping at him, saying she resented that for me. He said he was just joking, but ouch! And Jackie said 4 times what a hassle it was to come pick me up for youth group. I felt so..wanted! Hah. But yeah. Youth group was kind of dissapointing. All we did was watch Les Miserables. Which was cool, but for meeting so rarely, it was like, a waste of time. Oh well.
Ever since I got my filling on Friday, my head has hurt so bad! Geez. Its crazy. Put me in a really bad mood tonight. Bringing me to another thing..my sister (as Ive observed) is like, really rude to her friends. Gives them attitude, and insists on being right all the time. But they are such good friends to her! Now me, I think that Im pretty nice to my friends...yeah, I give sarcasm, but they all know its a joke, and I can be serious....I hope they know that..but anyway, when I turn to my friends for help, they dont really seem to be there. What is that?! Now, Emanuels brother is in the hospital, and hes not talking to me, at all. I asked him if hes okay, hes like "no". So ya' know, I tried to be nice, make him feel better...I said that my family is praying for his brother, and he just needs to turn to God. He just said ok, and basically left. I dont know...I know those are empty words, but without him talking to me, I cant really explain why I would say that or something. I dont know what to do anymore. Crystal is also getting on my last nerve. Everytime I so merely as mention Charmed, she bites my head off. If I disagree with anything she says, shes like, shut up! I spent $80.00 on her birthday presents, and then she bought me $20.00 worth of books 2 months after my birthday, and is given the right to be a total butthead to me. I dont get it. Shouldnt she be nice to me. Be thankful. She barely even said thankyou! Gosh.
So, with the friends that I have...whom in which I havent had an actual conversation with for over 2 weeks...I dont want to complain anymore to them. And I am trying so hard to turn to God to help me, but its hard when I have no immediate christian by my side to push me along. Crystal has Jackie and Dan. Jackie has her whole entire family..And I dont know any other christians...Crystal also has Brendan... and Michelle and Sarah from youth group. Why does everyone love her? Do they just love the fact that shes mean to them?!!!! AHH!
So life has been pretty crazy lately.Dad came home yesterday...I feel like saying today, but its actually past midnight. Heh. But yeah. I went to youth group, and spent the day with Jackie, Jill, Dan (Jackie b/f) and Crystal. Dan is cool, but I think he hates me. Because, everyone was hot (tempature wise) and Crystal says to me "Geez Naomi, you look really hot." And Dan goes "I dont think she looks hot." Then Crystal was harping at him, saying she resented that for me. He said he was just joking, but ouch! And Jackie said 4 times what a hassle it was to come pick me up for youth group. I felt so..wanted! Hah. But yeah. Youth group was kind of dissapointing. All we did was watch Les Miserables. Which was cool, but for meeting so rarely, it was like, a waste of time. Oh well.
Ever since I got my filling on Friday, my head has hurt so bad! Geez. Its crazy. Put me in a really bad mood tonight. Bringing me to another thing..my sister (as Ive observed) is like, really rude to her friends. Gives them attitude, and insists on being right all the time. But they are such good friends to her! Now me, I think that Im pretty nice to my friends...yeah, I give sarcasm, but they all know its a joke, and I can be serious....I hope they know that..but anyway, when I turn to my friends for help, they dont really seem to be there. What is that?! Now, Emanuels brother is in the hospital, and hes not talking to me, at all. I asked him if hes okay, hes like "no". So ya' know, I tried to be nice, make him feel better...I said that my family is praying for his brother, and he just needs to turn to God. He just said ok, and basically left. I dont know...I know those are empty words, but without him talking to me, I cant really explain why I would say that or something. I dont know what to do anymore. Crystal is also getting on my last nerve. Everytime I so merely as mention Charmed, she bites my head off. If I disagree with anything she says, shes like, shut up! I spent $80.00 on her birthday presents, and then she bought me $20.00 worth of books 2 months after my birthday, and is given the right to be a total butthead to me. I dont get it. Shouldnt she be nice to me. Be thankful. She barely even said thankyou! Gosh.
So, with the friends that I have...whom in which I havent had an actual conversation with for over 2 weeks...I dont want to complain anymore to them. And I am trying so hard to turn to God to help me, but its hard when I have no immediate christian by my side to push me along. Crystal has Jackie and Dan. Jackie has her whole entire family..And I dont know any other christians...Crystal also has Brendan... and Michelle and Sarah from youth group. Why does everyone love her? Do they just love the fact that shes mean to them?!!!! AHH!
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