Well, last night at youth group we went to Caribou Coffee and played Phase 10. It was fun, I liked it. Very unpredictable. lol. We were there for about 3.5 hours. :-) Today was church. I gave Charisse her gift then left because Crystal had some people come over this afternoon to look at our computer. The guys name was Jeff and I didnt catch his wifes name, but they were really nice. My Dads looking into either two Dell computers or one computer for all of us. We'll see. I personally want my own computer but who knows what will happen. Im trying not to get my hopes up. And then tonight I have youth group at the Rock. Im gonna give Tiffani her present, yay. Its kinda cute. Uhm, yeah, nothing else is really new. OH! Well actually there is. I have to write a 750 word essay on "what music is today." I have three angles Im considering on taking. The Poser angle. Like why are you all the sudden called a poser if you listen to two kinds of music? Or the sleeze angle.. Why is it that musicians can barely sell records unless they take off some clothes? Or the religious angle. How the only music worth keeping around is music worshipful to God because its the only music that means something. All the same, I am taking a survey. Please post your votes!!! Its for a grade! :-)
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Monday, December 13, 2004
Phil. 4:6
"Do not be anxious in anything but in everything be prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God."
Kay, something kind of cool happened today, so I'm gonna' post about it! It was at lunch, and I was not in any mood to pray. I was tired, bored with school, and ready to go home. Utterly Exhausted. -This is a dramatizatoon. Repeat: this is a dramatization! - Having just caught up on the daily reading, I knew I had to pray for a better mood. So to God I went. I asked Him for patience and opened doors throughout the rest of the school day and asked for forgiveness, having not prayed this until the day was half over. Doubt filled my head. Would conversation really start up in the 2nd half of journalism or in geometry? Not likely. Nothing in journalism. And math class was almost over. Then, the door opens! The girl sitting next to me, Candy, asked the kid infront of me, James, if he was really religious because she had thrown a pencil at him jokingly and he told her God was watching. He responded "Yes, but not as much as her," Pointing at me. She turned to me and asked how religious I was. I smiled and said "Jesus Freak! Praise the Lawrd!" My hand held up as if in worship, yet jokingly. The two laughed, I smiled and asked her what her stance was on the topic. She said she was lutherin. Point being, I doubted God and He proved Himself to me yet again! Silly me for doubting.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
The money pit meets Calvary
This is becoming a "once-a-month" thing now! Kinda funny in my opinion, but apparantly my readers are eager to hear about the boring details of my life, so here goes. I put up the tree for Christmas. It's ugly. Lol, I honestly dont like it. It's fake! Duh, who would like it? I want to take it down but I'm just going to wait until Christmas is over, obviously because that would defeat the purpose of putting it up. And.. I stayed home Wednesday to go to a thrift store in Chicago. The thrift store was a dud but I did end up cleaning all day. Eh? Fun yeah? Hah, no, not really. I had to clean two bathrooms, a kitchen, and living room. On the upside I got paid so no complaints here.
Ummm. Okay, so not this past week, but the week before, the only movies I rented from Blockbuster were Tom Hanks movies. Good stuff. But two of the three movies I rented that week were on TV a few days after I rented them. So that was kinda' funny. On top of those two movies being on, two Tom Hanks movies I didnt rent, Sleepless in Seattle and That Thing You Do, were also on this week. I counted up how many Tom Hanks movies I have seen, and the total was 23. That includes:
1. The Polar Express (2004)
2. The Terminal (2004)
3. The Ladykillers (2004)
4. Catch Me If You Can (2002)
5. Road to Perdition (2002)
6. Cast Away (2000)
7. Toy Story 2 (1999/II)
8. The Green Mile (1999)
9. Toy Story 2 (1999)
10. You've Got Mail (1998)
11. That Thing You Do! (1996)
12. Toy Story (1995)
13. Apollo 13 (1995)
14. Forrest Gump (1994)
15. Sleepless in Seattle (1993)
16. A league of their own
17. Joe Versus the Volcano (1990)
18. Turner & Hooch (1989)
19. The 'burbs (1989)
20. Big (1988)
21. The Money Pit (1986)
22. The Man with One Red Shoe (1985)
23. Splash (1984)
Good stuff, yeah? But I intend to rent Saving Private Ryan and Philedelphia soon so I can cross those off my list. Hes coming out with a few new movies this year that Im excited to see, but one kinda worries me. The Da Vinci Code. I dont know who hes going to play or what not because I didnt read that book, but I really dont want it to be compromising.
Haha, me and my ma' were talking about 'The Moneypit' this past week and we were wondering if we could write something that funny. Non-Stop comedy. I dont know but Im going to try. It's in the process of forming.
OH! I read this book 'The Wager' by Bill Myers. It was soo good. I definately reccomend it. It was about this guy who is a movie star and a christian and hes trying to live by the Sermon on the Mount. So God and satan make this wager on him. satan says the sermon on the mount is impossible to live by and he'll prove it through this guy. But God says its not impossible and He'll prove satan wrong, as per usual. It was really good!
On a closing note, picture this: 'The Money Pit' meets 'Calvary Chapel O'Hare'. Eh, eh?!? I see comedy.
This is becoming a "once-a-month" thing now! Kinda funny in my opinion, but apparantly my readers are eager to hear about the boring details of my life, so here goes. I put up the tree for Christmas. It's ugly. Lol, I honestly dont like it. It's fake! Duh, who would like it? I want to take it down but I'm just going to wait until Christmas is over, obviously because that would defeat the purpose of putting it up. And.. I stayed home Wednesday to go to a thrift store in Chicago. The thrift store was a dud but I did end up cleaning all day. Eh? Fun yeah? Hah, no, not really. I had to clean two bathrooms, a kitchen, and living room. On the upside I got paid so no complaints here.
Ummm. Okay, so not this past week, but the week before, the only movies I rented from Blockbuster were Tom Hanks movies. Good stuff. But two of the three movies I rented that week were on TV a few days after I rented them. So that was kinda' funny. On top of those two movies being on, two Tom Hanks movies I didnt rent, Sleepless in Seattle and That Thing You Do, were also on this week. I counted up how many Tom Hanks movies I have seen, and the total was 23. That includes:
1. The Polar Express (2004)
2. The Terminal (2004)
3. The Ladykillers (2004)
4. Catch Me If You Can (2002)
5. Road to Perdition (2002)
6. Cast Away (2000)
7. Toy Story 2 (1999/II)
8. The Green Mile (1999)
9. Toy Story 2 (1999)
10. You've Got Mail (1998)
11. That Thing You Do! (1996)
12. Toy Story (1995)
13. Apollo 13 (1995)
14. Forrest Gump (1994)
15. Sleepless in Seattle (1993)
16. A league of their own
17. Joe Versus the Volcano (1990)
18. Turner & Hooch (1989)
19. The 'burbs (1989)
20. Big (1988)
21. The Money Pit (1986)
22. The Man with One Red Shoe (1985)
23. Splash (1984)
Good stuff, yeah? But I intend to rent Saving Private Ryan and Philedelphia soon so I can cross those off my list. Hes coming out with a few new movies this year that Im excited to see, but one kinda worries me. The Da Vinci Code. I dont know who hes going to play or what not because I didnt read that book, but I really dont want it to be compromising.
Haha, me and my ma' were talking about 'The Moneypit' this past week and we were wondering if we could write something that funny. Non-Stop comedy. I dont know but Im going to try. It's in the process of forming.
OH! I read this book 'The Wager' by Bill Myers. It was soo good. I definately reccomend it. It was about this guy who is a movie star and a christian and hes trying to live by the Sermon on the Mount. So God and satan make this wager on him. satan says the sermon on the mount is impossible to live by and he'll prove it through this guy. But God says its not impossible and He'll prove satan wrong, as per usual. It was really good!
On a closing note, picture this: 'The Money Pit' meets 'Calvary Chapel O'Hare'. Eh, eh?!? I see comedy.
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Its been A while
I find it funny how a lot of my "recent" posts are starting with how I feel like I havent updated in forever. Well, maybe that's because I really haven't this time but thats besides the point. Nothing is really "new." I mean, Dad's still going in and out of the hospital.. I think he will be getting the results back from his last telling to determine if the infection is still in him... Um, the girls bible study finally starting which is really great. So far Im really liking it. Ive already learning a few things and am ready to dig deeper so I can grow closer to the Lord. Um, the winter missions are in the process of actually happening. But I get the feeling it's not God's will for me to go this time. Obviously I can't know for sure, like if someone just gave me money to go or something then yeah, but.. I dont know, I dont feel as strong a desire to go as I did for New York. Maybe nobody does and thats to be expected I guess, but it's just not something I feel called to do. Again, I gotta' stress that it could just be satan trying to sway me out of it or just my own understanding telling me that I cant afford it but.. I dont know, Im just waiting for the Lords answer on it all. Another kinda small but I guess big thing that happened recently is that Ive been praying out loud. I dont even know when my first time was.. I think 2 weeks ago at youth group? With the exception of the womans retreat a while ago and Tuesday mornings at school. It's cool though.. Like, it's not really a big deal for me because I pray out loud every night to myself.. I think the major difference is that for some reason when I pray out loud in group or with someone else I kinda' lose my train of thought or what I was going to say and I just kind of fumble over my words. Its a little embarassing but no biggie. Um, then theres my journalism class which is going okay. Weve been writing a lot of leads on sample stories... About half of the class is seniors and I think we're all being graded equally so that means I have to step up a notch. Lately Ive felt really compelled to lift up Theo and Tiffany and Emanuel in prayer. I think thats because a lot of my thoughts have been focused on Peter and Sancha because they're somewhat interested in coming to church so it feels like.. I should just be lifting them up but in reality I need to be praying for all of them because I care about each of them and they all need so much prayer and guidance from the Lord that it shouldn't be my decision who I lift up and who I dont. I havent talked to Theo in..a really long time and I dont think he is going to talk to me even if I try to call him so obviously the only thing I can do in that situation is pray for him. Emanuel has a girlfriend now or something and is busy planning stuff with her so we havent hung out.. Umm. Yeah, well Im done babbling. Nothing really else to say accept that God is so faithful if we just reach out to Him. He will answer us if we just ask him. Soo. JUST ASK HIM! lol
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Scary Phone Call
Wow, I feel like I havent updated in forever. ::shrug:: Anyway. My friend Linda called me. I met her in 8th grade and then she moved in with her mom and dad at the end of that year. (Through 8th grade she lived with her aunt and uncle) So I havent seen her since the end of 8th grade. Shes been having a really hard time living with her mom because her mom expects SO much of her. They're chinese and I guess its kind of their custom to be perfect or something like that. Well, Linda just wants to be a normal teenage girl... Read magazine, listen to the latest music, hang out with friends. Thats just, the biggest thing she wants. Well, she called me tonight jusy crying. Shes called me a few times before crying and stuff but this call was different. It was kind of hard trying to make out what she was saying but I managed. She said stuff like "Naomi, you were such a great friend.. i love you girl" and "my life is so horrible.. i just cant live it anymore." then she said 'goodbye' and hung up! I called back a hundred times before she answered. I talked to her for 35 minutes.. Just trying to calm her down, talk her out of whatever she was thinking.. Um, she is just in so much pain. I know exactly how she feels because I used to feel exactly like she does now. Like your struggling so hard to be happy and you just cant. Its like, if your drowing in water and your trying to hard to just get on top to breathe, but you cant. So eventually, you die. And shes saying shes at that point. I was just like.. praying. I tried to tell her I knew how she felt and that she can make it through but when your at the spot, you dont want to hear how "people know how you feel." And it was hard for me to just sit there and not have anything to do.. I could not say anything to help her. I could not do anything to help her. I know all I can do is pray and though that feels so.. helpless, I know its the best thing for her. Im going to call her after school tomorrow and hopefully things will be better.
P.S. (Is that what you write in a journal when you have something little to add? Lol) I am currently working on Volume 2, Issue 2 of RY magazine! I acutally haven't printed Volume 1, Issue 1 yet because it costs $1 a page at the library for colored pages and I dont have $14 yet. Plus I have to buy a $45 memory card for my NEW Powershot A75 digital camera! Yeah! Ma' got it for me 1 week ago for Christmas. Yes, I know its not christmas but it was on sale now. And just to mension.. Wednesday, when I got it, I brought it to Vintage to show my cousins and stuff and Erik was soo keen on dissing it. "Oh, Im getting a $500.00 one.. Mines going to be so much better.. Yours is cheap.. Da da da da da" Well, he is getting one for himself.. And I wont even say how he rubs it in my face that he got a better deal! Gr. Lol. Oh well, Im just so happy I have one I dont care what he does with his. :-P Heh
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
The 9 fellowship members
Okay, so since Friday my internet has been off. I guess we couldnt afford it or something but now we just got.. something.. Im actually not even sure what it id.. though Im pretty sure its SBC global. Oh well, alteast I can update this now.. though I still cant get on my s/n. ::shrug:: So.. nothing really new has been going on. I missed study on Monday because Crystal didnt want to go and mom said she'd go but she wasnt ready and was tired soo... I didnt go. I know all the verses.. I can type them now without looking. But, that doesnt matter. Lol. Sooo. Lately Ive been spending 2 hours at the library a day.. Well, I did on Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Tuesday.. Not Monday because I THOUGHT we were going to study but whatever, no bitter feelings.At the library, I was working on my news letter/magazing. So far it has 14 pages which is probably the limit because I cant afford to print it anyway. Lol, but personally, I think it looks pretty cool.. I dont intend to give it to anyone or anything.. if they saw it and wanted it them I dont know.. but right now Im just making them for fun. Hehe. Get my stuff published.. by me.. :-) Umm. So yesterday I totally sat down and watched the Fellowship. It was so overwhelming I almost cried! It has been so long since I watched it.. it really brought back memories of New York City! Speaking of which I had a dream about NYC last night. Me, Crystal, mom and aunt Jenny drove down to NYC.. then all the sudden Crystal has a broken leg and apparantly got it from jumping backwards on her crutches.. How she did that on the crutches before actually getting them for the broken leg is beyond me, but thats why its a dream.. I remember something about Jackie and Allie, but I dont remember what they had to do with anything.
Okay, so since Friday my internet has been off. I guess we couldnt afford it or something but now we just got.. something.. Im actually not even sure what it id.. though Im pretty sure its SBC global. Oh well, alteast I can update this now.. though I still cant get on my s/n. ::shrug:: So.. nothing really new has been going on. I missed study on Monday because Crystal didnt want to go and mom said she'd go but she wasnt ready and was tired soo... I didnt go. I know all the verses.. I can type them now without looking. But, that doesnt matter. Lol. Sooo. Lately Ive been spending 2 hours at the library a day.. Well, I did on Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Tuesday.. Not Monday because I THOUGHT we were going to study but whatever, no bitter feelings.At the library, I was working on my news letter/magazing. So far it has 14 pages which is probably the limit because I cant afford to print it anyway. Lol, but personally, I think it looks pretty cool.. I dont intend to give it to anyone or anything.. if they saw it and wanted it them I dont know.. but right now Im just making them for fun. Hehe. Get my stuff published.. by me.. :-) Umm. So yesterday I totally sat down and watched the Fellowship. It was so overwhelming I almost cried! It has been so long since I watched it.. it really brought back memories of New York City! Speaking of which I had a dream about NYC last night. Me, Crystal, mom and aunt Jenny drove down to NYC.. then all the sudden Crystal has a broken leg and apparantly got it from jumping backwards on her crutches.. How she did that on the crutches before actually getting them for the broken leg is beyond me, but thats why its a dream.. I remember something about Jackie and Allie, but I dont remember what they had to do with anything.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Vintage: Battle of the Bulge
Tonight was the Battle of the Bulge at Vintage youth group and it started out pretty cool. The band played some Swicthfoot, Skillet, Evanescence.. then there were some skits, eating contest. Then pastor Heith started his message. He was talking about death.. they had a grim reaper walking around through some RIP tombstones.. and some smoke machines making everything foggy.. right as he was tying Jesus into everything, telling everyone that through Jesus we can live, the smoke alarm went off and we all had to leave! I was just in shock.. like how the enemy did that. We were outside and stopped and prayed for a minute. But basically, the night did not go as they planned. I feel so bad for the people who spent all that time planning it.. like that would just be so upsetting. Im just praying that seeds were planted in those peoples hearts tonight. I pray they come back.. because at this point Im just so fearful that the enemy took hold of them again tonight... but yeah, all I can do is pray..
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Shoo be do be do wahhh
Well, Ive been doing alright. Dad went into the hospital for awhile..Northwest Community, but they werent treating him good so he left today and now hes home.. he.. well, im not going to get into it but hes finding a different hospital to check into. So, I guess nothing is really new. The vintage party is tomorrow evening. Crystal cant go because she has to work so I have to get ma to drop me off there or at the Rods and then Crystal can pick me up after she gets off work but its just going to be chaotic.. Um, yeah.. I talked to Jesse yesterday for a bit and hes just been straying from his walk. Getting so wrapped up in himself and dating that he almost doesnt even care. We talked for about an hour (which i was a bit.. iffy about after all the lessons we went over) but I think it was fine. I was praying a lot during the conversation and then like, I dont know if he got anything out of what I shared with him but I kinda got to share my testimony and encourage him so I dont know. Besides that, Im just looking for a job. I filled out an application for Hallmark, and Im going to get one for like, burger king, wendys, and jewel.. and any other places that may hire 15 year olds because i want to buy people something for christmas.. i want to have my own money to spend on what i want or whatever without having to ask mom or dad. And I really want a digital camera.. plus I just need a job, so yeah. lately Ive been making my own little studies on stuff from the bible during study hall because I get bored. The first one I wrote out was just the study from Wednesday night youth group when pastor Heith talked about purity.
PURITY
1 Kings 11:1-10
Song of Songs 5:8 and 6:41
Thessalonians 4:3-8
Genesis 39: 1-12
+ 39:6 -7 "Now Joseph was well built and handsome, and after a while his masters wife took notice of Joseph and said "Come to bed with me."
-In other words, she thought he was hot and wanted him.
+ 39:8 "But he refused. "With me in charge," he told her, "my master does not concern himself with anything in this house; everything he owns he has entrusted to my care."
-Basically, Joseph is telling her he is not going to break the trust with his master and sin against God.
+ 39:10 "And thought she spoke to Joseph day after day, he refused to go to bed with her or even be with her."
-So it wasnt like she asked him once and gave up, but she was constantly tempting him.
-Joseph was wise and decided to stay away from her because the Lord commanded us to flee from temptation.
DO YOU FLEE FROM TEMPTATION?
Girls: Do you dress modestly? Or do you wear clothes that can tempt your brothers? Honestly, are you wearing clothes to get some attention?
Guys: Do you protect your sisters from temptation? Or do you pressure them and tempt them yourselves into doing things the Lord clearly commands us to stay away from until marriage?
~~> Society uses everything for sex. From selling Dorritos to fashion by using sex appeal. Its no surpise to us anymore that were pressured to have sex before marriage but does that mean you have to give in? Joseph didnt. It cost him a lot but he held strong with the Lord, living in faith. It may have cost him a lot but he was brave enough to handle it. Are you?
~~>God has someone special picked out specifically for you to marry.-Be faithful to that person-Thinking in terms of already being married to the person God has picked for you; would dating not be like cheating?-Anyone you date will have their own spouse one day. Their own special person specifically picked for them from God Himself.
Experiment
1) Take some tape and stick it to your clothes. (Duck Tape or Scotch Tape works best)
2) Peel the tape off in 3 minutes
3) Stick in on again somewhere else
4) Repeat numbers 1-3
5) Repeat numbers 1-3
-Eventually that tape will stop sticking.- This experiment is a lot like purity and marriage. The tape is your purity. If you have sex with a certain amount of people, eventually the closeness of it will begin to wear thin. (The stickiness.) By the time you get married, the stickiness of that purity, the tape, will be gone. All that is left is comparisons going around in your head.
Temptation
1 Corinthians 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
Hebrews 4:15 "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are--yet was without sin."
Well, Ive been doing alright. Dad went into the hospital for awhile..Northwest Community, but they werent treating him good so he left today and now hes home.. he.. well, im not going to get into it but hes finding a different hospital to check into. So, I guess nothing is really new. The vintage party is tomorrow evening. Crystal cant go because she has to work so I have to get ma to drop me off there or at the Rods and then Crystal can pick me up after she gets off work but its just going to be chaotic.. Um, yeah.. I talked to Jesse yesterday for a bit and hes just been straying from his walk. Getting so wrapped up in himself and dating that he almost doesnt even care. We talked for about an hour (which i was a bit.. iffy about after all the lessons we went over) but I think it was fine. I was praying a lot during the conversation and then like, I dont know if he got anything out of what I shared with him but I kinda got to share my testimony and encourage him so I dont know. Besides that, Im just looking for a job. I filled out an application for Hallmark, and Im going to get one for like, burger king, wendys, and jewel.. and any other places that may hire 15 year olds because i want to buy people something for christmas.. i want to have my own money to spend on what i want or whatever without having to ask mom or dad. And I really want a digital camera.. plus I just need a job, so yeah. lately Ive been making my own little studies on stuff from the bible during study hall because I get bored. The first one I wrote out was just the study from Wednesday night youth group when pastor Heith talked about purity.
PURITY
1 Kings 11:1-10
Song of Songs 5:8 and 6:41
Thessalonians 4:3-8
Genesis 39: 1-12
+ 39:6 -7 "Now Joseph was well built and handsome, and after a while his masters wife took notice of Joseph and said "Come to bed with me."
-In other words, she thought he was hot and wanted him.
+ 39:8 "But he refused. "With me in charge," he told her, "my master does not concern himself with anything in this house; everything he owns he has entrusted to my care."
-Basically, Joseph is telling her he is not going to break the trust with his master and sin against God.
+ 39:10 "And thought she spoke to Joseph day after day, he refused to go to bed with her or even be with her."
-So it wasnt like she asked him once and gave up, but she was constantly tempting him.
-Joseph was wise and decided to stay away from her because the Lord commanded us to flee from temptation.
DO YOU FLEE FROM TEMPTATION?
Girls: Do you dress modestly? Or do you wear clothes that can tempt your brothers? Honestly, are you wearing clothes to get some attention?
Guys: Do you protect your sisters from temptation? Or do you pressure them and tempt them yourselves into doing things the Lord clearly commands us to stay away from until marriage?
~~> Society uses everything for sex. From selling Dorritos to fashion by using sex appeal. Its no surpise to us anymore that were pressured to have sex before marriage but does that mean you have to give in? Joseph didnt. It cost him a lot but he held strong with the Lord, living in faith. It may have cost him a lot but he was brave enough to handle it. Are you?
~~>God has someone special picked out specifically for you to marry.-Be faithful to that person-Thinking in terms of already being married to the person God has picked for you; would dating not be like cheating?-Anyone you date will have their own spouse one day. Their own special person specifically picked for them from God Himself.
Experiment
1) Take some tape and stick it to your clothes. (Duck Tape or Scotch Tape works best)
2) Peel the tape off in 3 minutes
3) Stick in on again somewhere else
4) Repeat numbers 1-3
5) Repeat numbers 1-3
-Eventually that tape will stop sticking.- This experiment is a lot like purity and marriage. The tape is your purity. If you have sex with a certain amount of people, eventually the closeness of it will begin to wear thin. (The stickiness.) By the time you get married, the stickiness of that purity, the tape, will be gone. All that is left is comparisons going around in your head.
Temptation
1 Corinthians 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
Hebrews 4:15 "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are--yet was without sin."
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
I was faithless through what I thought was a friendless fiasco.
Okay, now this is one of the most personal posts Ive ever written, er, am going to write but I want to get it out.. Last Friday, October 1, 2004.. I was on the phone with my friends Megan and Emanuel. Emanuel has been going through a lot of junk lately and I havent seen Megan for a year and a half because she moved and we just never made plans. So were all on the phone just talking, and I realize how "out of the loop" I really am. They know exactly what eachother is talking about and I was so clueless. About bands, Tv.. etc. A part of me, the smaller part was proud of myself that Ive come so far in my walk with God that Im becoming less of the the world and more a child of Him. But the bigger part of me was almost upset. I used to be the one in the group who knew the latest music, who would laugh at Emans gross jokes.. etc.. Now, the tables have turned. Im the one telling him its not funny, saying I dont know what band theyre talking about.. And I started to feel like a prude.. It was just hard. That on top of sitting alone at lunch and having nobody to talk with, well, it wasnt easy like I said. At youth group it kinda feels like everyone has their best friend. Jackie and Reese or Reese and TIff.. Or Jill and TIff.. Ryan and Erik, Eric and Erik, etc.. And I know.. I KNOW God is more than enough..but it doesnt make having no friends in person any easier. I am so thankful that God is there for me, at all times, no matter what.. Anyway, I think the last thing was Sunday at this new youth group we went to in Lombard when everyone was making some really good friends and I was left in the dark. I said hi and stuff to a lot of people but nobody really talked to me. One girl was so excited to meet Jill, Crystal started talking with this guy Mike who goes to a highschool close to ours.. and I was just standing there. I couldnt understand why Im always the one people dont want to talk to. Why I have no social skills. I started being more like JIll, loud and out spoken.. and being more like the rest of the youth who have lots of friends and I couldnt understand why it wasnt working. Why do people like Jill/Jax/Crys/Reese/Tiff etc and not me?! On the ride home from the youth group I was just listening to my music and basically trying to figure things out. Had God called on me to be a loner? I hoped not because I really have a desire to have close friends and people I can talk with. I was listening to this song by "Barlow Girl" called 'Mirror'. The chorus says : >>Who are you to tell me, That I'm less than what I should be? Who are you? Who are you? I don't need to listen To the list of things I should do, I won't try, I won't try<<>
Okay, now this is one of the most personal posts Ive ever written, er, am going to write but I want to get it out.. Last Friday, October 1, 2004.. I was on the phone with my friends Megan and Emanuel. Emanuel has been going through a lot of junk lately and I havent seen Megan for a year and a half because she moved and we just never made plans. So were all on the phone just talking, and I realize how "out of the loop" I really am. They know exactly what eachother is talking about and I was so clueless. About bands, Tv.. etc. A part of me, the smaller part was proud of myself that Ive come so far in my walk with God that Im becoming less of the the world and more a child of Him. But the bigger part of me was almost upset. I used to be the one in the group who knew the latest music, who would laugh at Emans gross jokes.. etc.. Now, the tables have turned. Im the one telling him its not funny, saying I dont know what band theyre talking about.. And I started to feel like a prude.. It was just hard. That on top of sitting alone at lunch and having nobody to talk with, well, it wasnt easy like I said. At youth group it kinda feels like everyone has their best friend. Jackie and Reese or Reese and TIff.. Or Jill and TIff.. Ryan and Erik, Eric and Erik, etc.. And I know.. I KNOW God is more than enough..but it doesnt make having no friends in person any easier. I am so thankful that God is there for me, at all times, no matter what.. Anyway, I think the last thing was Sunday at this new youth group we went to in Lombard when everyone was making some really good friends and I was left in the dark. I said hi and stuff to a lot of people but nobody really talked to me. One girl was so excited to meet Jill, Crystal started talking with this guy Mike who goes to a highschool close to ours.. and I was just standing there. I couldnt understand why Im always the one people dont want to talk to. Why I have no social skills. I started being more like JIll, loud and out spoken.. and being more like the rest of the youth who have lots of friends and I couldnt understand why it wasnt working. Why do people like Jill/Jax/Crys/Reese/Tiff etc and not me?! On the ride home from the youth group I was just listening to my music and basically trying to figure things out. Had God called on me to be a loner? I hoped not because I really have a desire to have close friends and people I can talk with. I was listening to this song by "Barlow Girl" called 'Mirror'. The chorus says : >>Who are you to tell me, That I'm less than what I should be? Who are you? Who are you? I don't need to listen To the list of things I should do, I won't try, I won't try<<>
Friday, October 01, 2004
Praise Reports
Oh my goodness, so much happened today it feels like. Okay, so this morning I just, was not up to going to school but obviously I had to go anyway. So before school Im listening to Seven Places and on the verge of crying from #13.. (On the side of my blog) First block..nothing special..just annoyed and impatient. Second block.. nothing special. Just plain annoying. 3rd block, at the end of class the teached, Mr. Pentz, asked to look at my book (::clears throat:: the bible! ) So I walked up and handed it to him. He was skimming over the pages I was reading. At the time I was looking over the B Attitudes and on the side of the page I had a long note about whether or not being 'angry' is okay..when it is, when its not, etc. Well, he just kinda nodded and handed it back but it was cool. The whole class saw, (and throughout the whole class people were staring at what I do anyway.. it reminds me of what Heidi says sometimes.. how people are just attracted to the light of God that we have inside us.. Like, this year it just seems like people are so...intrigued with what Im doing and stuff. But yeah. Just a side note) 4th block.. nothing really happened.. just that 3 people were arguing about who got to work with me on the quiz because Im "smart".. Uh, on the way to the assembly this one lunch lady asked me to come over and she asked my name.. said she sees me everyday and she didnt know my name.. so, like.. "were cool." lol. After school, around 8 pm, Megan called.. were hanging out at the mall tomorrow. Then we 3 wayed Emanuel. We all talked until 10 pm when Megan got tired. Hes coming to the mall tomorrow also. Megan is coming to youth group too. Answer to prayer.. Lately Ive just added her to my prayers.. next thing I know were talking and shes coming to youth group. Whether or not her intensions are to learn about the Lord, I dont know. So, I get online once we get off the phone and decide "why not IM Peter?" I havent seen him in awhile and.. I just want to say hi. So I say Hi..
Naomi: hey dude
Peter: heeey you
Naomi: hows it going?
Peter: ohhh man
Peter: I need to talk to you
Naomi: alright. go for it. ^_^
Peter: I've decided to goto church, probably this coming weekend...
Naomi: Really? Thats so cool
Peter: yea. I've been thinking about it for a while and...well I just need to
Naomi: That is so cool! What church do you plan on going to?
Peter: Willow Creek...does that sound right? My friend (Garret) went there and is "hooking me up" so to speak
Naomi: Ooh. Well, to be honest, I dont like Willow Creek. To me, they are just looking for money and I have heard from a lot of people who go there that its not fullfilling and that they find more gossip there than at school. But, its fine.. I mean, Im not going to say its a bad church.. you know. I just, think..well, yeah. you get it, I hope.. heh
So, this was so amazing! I REALLY hope I didnt offend him or lead him away from the Lord..but I know how important it is to get involved in the right church.. ::sigh:: He didnt respond yet.. But anyway, that was so amazing because I added him to my prayers lately too.. Its just, so amazing. Im in awe.. Praise the Lord!
Oh my goodness, so much happened today it feels like. Okay, so this morning I just, was not up to going to school but obviously I had to go anyway. So before school Im listening to Seven Places and on the verge of crying from #13.. (On the side of my blog) First block..nothing special..just annoyed and impatient. Second block.. nothing special. Just plain annoying. 3rd block, at the end of class the teached, Mr. Pentz, asked to look at my book (::clears throat:: the bible! ) So I walked up and handed it to him. He was skimming over the pages I was reading. At the time I was looking over the B Attitudes and on the side of the page I had a long note about whether or not being 'angry' is okay..when it is, when its not, etc. Well, he just kinda nodded and handed it back but it was cool. The whole class saw, (and throughout the whole class people were staring at what I do anyway.. it reminds me of what Heidi says sometimes.. how people are just attracted to the light of God that we have inside us.. Like, this year it just seems like people are so...intrigued with what Im doing and stuff. But yeah. Just a side note) 4th block.. nothing really happened.. just that 3 people were arguing about who got to work with me on the quiz because Im "smart".. Uh, on the way to the assembly this one lunch lady asked me to come over and she asked my name.. said she sees me everyday and she didnt know my name.. so, like.. "were cool." lol. After school, around 8 pm, Megan called.. were hanging out at the mall tomorrow. Then we 3 wayed Emanuel. We all talked until 10 pm when Megan got tired. Hes coming to the mall tomorrow also. Megan is coming to youth group too. Answer to prayer.. Lately Ive just added her to my prayers.. next thing I know were talking and shes coming to youth group. Whether or not her intensions are to learn about the Lord, I dont know. So, I get online once we get off the phone and decide "why not IM Peter?" I havent seen him in awhile and.. I just want to say hi. So I say Hi..
Naomi: hey dude
Peter: heeey you
Naomi: hows it going?
Peter: ohhh man
Peter: I need to talk to you
Naomi: alright. go for it. ^_^
Peter: I've decided to goto church, probably this coming weekend...
Naomi: Really? Thats so cool
Peter: yea. I've been thinking about it for a while and...well I just need to
Naomi: That is so cool! What church do you plan on going to?
Peter: Willow Creek...does that sound right? My friend (Garret) went there and is "hooking me up" so to speak
Naomi: Ooh. Well, to be honest, I dont like Willow Creek. To me, they are just looking for money and I have heard from a lot of people who go there that its not fullfilling and that they find more gossip there than at school. But, its fine.. I mean, Im not going to say its a bad church.. you know. I just, think..well, yeah. you get it, I hope.. heh
So, this was so amazing! I REALLY hope I didnt offend him or lead him away from the Lord..but I know how important it is to get involved in the right church.. ::sigh:: He didnt respond yet.. But anyway, that was so amazing because I added him to my prayers lately too.. Its just, so amazing. Im in awe.. Praise the Lord!
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Under Attack
Well, quite a bit has actually happened since I last posted. Don (my friend Charisse's grandpa, my pastors father in law..and a close friend so hundreds of people) passed away thursday night last week. The wake was on Monday and the funeral on Tuesday. I didnt go because Crystal didnt have enough gas plus we didnt personally know him.. but I hear about it. For one thing, and it really makes me happy; a lot of people got saved at his funeral. That is just the coolest thing! Like.. I want people to get saved at my funeral! What better way to go, seriously?! That is just, so cool. Secondly..there was a nurse at the funeral..a friend of Dons I guess, and she saw how pale Jasmine was. (Jasmine is the neice of Don.) The nurse told Julie (the mom) to take Jasmine to the hospital because she was too pale. So, later Jasmine was taken to the hospital and she has leukemia (sp?) That just like.. is so horrible. But something that makes the mood lightened is that we know the pastors family and the Miz's are so strong in their walks with the Lord, such a threat to satan as they spread the truth around that the devil was so compelled to attack them in all these areas. But the Lord knows they can handle it. Ah, I love that theyre so strong in the Lord the devil feels the need to attack. Anyway, tonight at youth group nobody was there really. No Jill, no Jackie, no Jules, No Erik. Though Dan was there.. The message was awesome though. About 10 people went up at the end to dedicate the month of October to focusing completely on the Lord. A lot of the other kids just left.. but still, 10 people is truely amazing. I was just sitting in my seat and praying for them and for Dan. Well, Im sick of typing. Though there are other things I could say.. like how the pictures I took of tiff, jill, jax, and reese came out pretty good and how i printed about 10 pages in black and white at the library today.. or how these kids at school call me "Jesus Lover" and how other kids (i.e. seth) put their hands up in an 'X' mark when they see my christian clothes... This kid Dave was laughing when he saw my shirt today (Says "Jesus Saves, The offer still stands.") but then later he apologized.. Anyway, as I said before, there are other things I can talk about but Im not particularly interested in journaling lately. Quickly, I'll say that Darren is back from his mission trip to Egypt and I cant wait to hear about it. I got the new Hilary Duff CD and I really like it, though now I owe Crystal $10.00. I am applying at Hallmark this week and trying to get a work permit so please keep that in prayer. And also keep the talent show in prayer because I want it to be really awesome and I dont know what Im going to wear. :-)
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Busy
Well, lets see. Going way back to Friday, I walked from my house to Weathers Field Way Park then Dad picked me up and we went to Jewel. But on my walk I called Theo, I wanted to clear things up and fix thre friendship. Or reconcile whatever was left of it. We talked for about 20 minutes, and by the end of the conversation he came to the decision that he didnt trust me and didnt want to be my friend. I mean, it is somewhat understandable because I did talk to Melody about him and tiffany, but because I was looking out for Tiff, I dont think it was really wrong. In his defense it was because it was pretty cofidential information. I apologized but he didnt care anyway..so yeah. A part of me is almost relieved that he ended the friendship because it was at the point where he didnt appreciate anything.. I let him sleep at my house for 2 weekends...brought him to a concert.. etc..and he is so willing to stop the friendship right there, because i "broke his trust" in a situation with tiffany that he got himself into. But besides that, I do wish things didnt have to end like that. It sucks. But, it is what it is and Im not going to let it get me down; Im just going to continue praying for him and I ask anyone else to lift him up in prayer. Saturday was the church picnic. I hung with Tiffani-Nicole and Jill mostly. We roamed around and I took some pictures of them. Then we had the meeting of youth group for girls about modesty. It was good. Umm, okay, so Sunday was Praise in the Park. I stayed with Charisse, Jax and Jill after church and took some pictures of them around the park. It was cool. Then we went to Praise in the Park. I called Eman and talked to him for about a half hour. He told me a bit about what happened and its got me really worried. Just, guys..please lift him up in prayer. I cant give details yet because hes still secretive about it and its not my place, so..just pray for him in general. Um.. I missed monday night study because I was sick.. Today, Tuesday, was tiffanys birthday! Happy birthday TIFF! Heh, I made her a booklet of pics of her and theo..Its kinda cute, but umm. Then I went out with my Ma after my half day of school and we went to the Saturn Dealer. Walked out (Drove out in a ) 2004 Saturn ION. Its nice. lol. New car! Its silver. Yay. we went driving around for about an hour and a half, just cruising. Okay well.. thats about it for now.
Well, lets see. Going way back to Friday, I walked from my house to Weathers Field Way Park then Dad picked me up and we went to Jewel. But on my walk I called Theo, I wanted to clear things up and fix thre friendship. Or reconcile whatever was left of it. We talked for about 20 minutes, and by the end of the conversation he came to the decision that he didnt trust me and didnt want to be my friend. I mean, it is somewhat understandable because I did talk to Melody about him and tiffany, but because I was looking out for Tiff, I dont think it was really wrong. In his defense it was because it was pretty cofidential information. I apologized but he didnt care anyway..so yeah. A part of me is almost relieved that he ended the friendship because it was at the point where he didnt appreciate anything.. I let him sleep at my house for 2 weekends...brought him to a concert.. etc..and he is so willing to stop the friendship right there, because i "broke his trust" in a situation with tiffany that he got himself into. But besides that, I do wish things didnt have to end like that. It sucks. But, it is what it is and Im not going to let it get me down; Im just going to continue praying for him and I ask anyone else to lift him up in prayer. Saturday was the church picnic. I hung with Tiffani-Nicole and Jill mostly. We roamed around and I took some pictures of them. Then we had the meeting of youth group for girls about modesty. It was good. Umm, okay, so Sunday was Praise in the Park. I stayed with Charisse, Jax and Jill after church and took some pictures of them around the park. It was cool. Then we went to Praise in the Park. I called Eman and talked to him for about a half hour. He told me a bit about what happened and its got me really worried. Just, guys..please lift him up in prayer. I cant give details yet because hes still secretive about it and its not my place, so..just pray for him in general. Um.. I missed monday night study because I was sick.. Today, Tuesday, was tiffanys birthday! Happy birthday TIFF! Heh, I made her a booklet of pics of her and theo..Its kinda cute, but umm. Then I went out with my Ma after my half day of school and we went to the Saturn Dealer. Walked out (Drove out in a ) 2004 Saturn ION. Its nice. lol. New car! Its silver. Yay. we went driving around for about an hour and a half, just cruising. Okay well.. thats about it for now.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
The Phone Call
Wow! For one, youth group was kinda annoying. Everyone was running around humping each other jokingly.. We watched Different Strokes.. they made all this popcorn and people just threw it around like nothing else! Was really rude and I know if I was leader to that group, Id be really upset. But anyway, on the ride home from youth group, Aunt Linda called my cell. She had NEVER called me before. Until of course she talked to my dad and found out I was thinking of moving out. She kept me on the phone for 40 minutes, telling me how I should be acting, ect. Then she starts saying my mom doesnt know how to properly love someone. Well, for one, she wouldnt know because all she goes by is what my dad remembers about my mom from 5 years ago. Secondly, she thinks my dad is so great at showing love but its all physical! Oh well.. then she tells me to talk to a psychologist.. like her son Michael did at my age. Then she says.. everything is only good in moderation. You cant do something to an extreme.. (talking about religion). There is no "too deep." I know the Lord and I base my life off of what I learn about it. I thirst to learn more of His ways and grow closer to Him.. and if that is "too deep" to people, then so be it. I know the Lord wants so much more than anything I can ever give Him, so I dont see how Im doing too much. Sounds crazy to me. Obviously right now Im a bit frusterated...so Im going to stop talking and wait to cool down. Wooh
Wow! For one, youth group was kinda annoying. Everyone was running around humping each other jokingly.. We watched Different Strokes.. they made all this popcorn and people just threw it around like nothing else! Was really rude and I know if I was leader to that group, Id be really upset. But anyway, on the ride home from youth group, Aunt Linda called my cell. She had NEVER called me before. Until of course she talked to my dad and found out I was thinking of moving out. She kept me on the phone for 40 minutes, telling me how I should be acting, ect. Then she starts saying my mom doesnt know how to properly love someone. Well, for one, she wouldnt know because all she goes by is what my dad remembers about my mom from 5 years ago. Secondly, she thinks my dad is so great at showing love but its all physical! Oh well.. then she tells me to talk to a psychologist.. like her son Michael did at my age. Then she says.. everything is only good in moderation. You cant do something to an extreme.. (talking about religion). There is no "too deep." I know the Lord and I base my life off of what I learn about it. I thirst to learn more of His ways and grow closer to Him.. and if that is "too deep" to people, then so be it. I know the Lord wants so much more than anything I can ever give Him, so I dont see how Im doing too much. Sounds crazy to me. Obviously right now Im a bit frusterated...so Im going to stop talking and wait to cool down. Wooh
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Kicked out?
Well, me and Dad got into a fight yesterday. Here is the story. On the way to school in the morning, I asked Crystal for my headphones back. She said she left them at home, but the thing is I gave her headphones back to her the other day. She did not hear me say I also wanted mine back so she left them at home. So, before I got out of the car I took my CD back from her and said she couldn’t use it so she had nothing to listen to all day. She started yelling at me in the car, then apparently called Dad from school and told him I was arguing with her in her car. So, after school Dad sat me down and was like “Number one, you CAN NOT yell at your sister while she’s driving! We have been over this before. I’m really sick of your attitude towards me, and your sister.” I did not say anything the whole time really. Then he says “And you need to pick up the towels in the bathroom after you take a shower! I am sick of telling you a thousand times to do something and then you never do it! Pick up your crap.” (I put a towel down on the floor when I take a shower because he clips his toenails, smokes in that bathroom, and does not clean the floor so it’s disgusting. I do not want to touch it) Well, then he says, “You spend all your time on the internet, stay up late, and don’t pull your weight around this house! You’re lucky I give you the privilege of the internet! You have everything you could possibly want! You have NO idea how lenient I am with you girls. You can not even imagine what any other father would do.” I do not know where the transmission happened, but he started talking about my moving in with Mom again. He says, “You would have nothing there! No internet, nothing. You think you’d like it better there?” (Yes, I said, I do not need the internet.) He says to me, “Then you can’t use it!” So now, I cannot go on anymore. Also said he is going to take away my cell phone. He goes on saying how he would not allow me to leave so I said that would be up to the judge, not him; That I am old enough where the judge would ask what I wanted and most likely let me. He got so mad and said, “You know what, go live with your mom! I will pay her $125 to take you! Leave! You will be miserable. I hope you know what your doing!” So I walked away… :: sigh:: I don’t know what I’m going to do now. I will tell Mom after school what happened because she is picking me up to go to Car Max with her.
Well, me and Dad got into a fight yesterday. Here is the story. On the way to school in the morning, I asked Crystal for my headphones back. She said she left them at home, but the thing is I gave her headphones back to her the other day. She did not hear me say I also wanted mine back so she left them at home. So, before I got out of the car I took my CD back from her and said she couldn’t use it so she had nothing to listen to all day. She started yelling at me in the car, then apparently called Dad from school and told him I was arguing with her in her car. So, after school Dad sat me down and was like “Number one, you CAN NOT yell at your sister while she’s driving! We have been over this before. I’m really sick of your attitude towards me, and your sister.” I did not say anything the whole time really. Then he says “And you need to pick up the towels in the bathroom after you take a shower! I am sick of telling you a thousand times to do something and then you never do it! Pick up your crap.” (I put a towel down on the floor when I take a shower because he clips his toenails, smokes in that bathroom, and does not clean the floor so it’s disgusting. I do not want to touch it) Well, then he says, “You spend all your time on the internet, stay up late, and don’t pull your weight around this house! You’re lucky I give you the privilege of the internet! You have everything you could possibly want! You have NO idea how lenient I am with you girls. You can not even imagine what any other father would do.” I do not know where the transmission happened, but he started talking about my moving in with Mom again. He says, “You would have nothing there! No internet, nothing. You think you’d like it better there?” (Yes, I said, I do not need the internet.) He says to me, “Then you can’t use it!” So now, I cannot go on anymore. Also said he is going to take away my cell phone. He goes on saying how he would not allow me to leave so I said that would be up to the judge, not him; That I am old enough where the judge would ask what I wanted and most likely let me. He got so mad and said, “You know what, go live with your mom! I will pay her $125 to take you! Leave! You will be miserable. I hope you know what your doing!” So I walked away… :: sigh:: I don’t know what I’m going to do now. I will tell Mom after school what happened because she is picking me up to go to Car Max with her.
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Naomi got asked out (not just a catchy title!) EHH!
Well, a lot has KINDA been happening. Im going to start with today and make my way back as far as I can remember; as far as updates go. For one thing, after school today! Crystal had to go to Art Club for an officers meeting so I was sitting outside for an hour waiting. I didnt really have a problem with it. I could have gone to a club but I just felt like chilling. So okay, Im walking around for about 20 minutes by the front doors. A few thoughts pop into my head about witnessing or being a good example but I didnt act on it. Im just walking, and looking, and walking, and looking, right? Okay, so I see this small note on the ground and naturally, I think "Ooh juicy!" You know, thinking it had potential to put in my book, so I pick it up. It was Isaiah 50:4. It reads: "The Lord God hath given me the tongue of the Learned that I should know how to speak a word in season to (him that is) weary: he wakeneth morning by morning, he wakeneth mine ear to hear as the learned." So, I just intepreted it as...God telling me Ive heard the truth and know it. I can talk about it to the weary/people who dont know what I do. So I went and sat on a bench. A few seconds after I did this boy walks up to sit on the bench beside the one I was on and I just said 'hi' to be friendly. He asked if he could sit by me and I was just like 'oh yeah, sure..' You know, I figured it was a good oppurtunity to talk about the Lord. First impression, nice kid.. Had clammy hands.. (I know because when we introduced ourselves he shook my hand.. his name was Matthew) Well anyway, we started talking. I asked a lot of questions to just get to know him, be friendly.. set the air to a calmer feeling. Anyway, asked him his name, obviously, year in school (sophomore), age (15), some classes he has (only mensioned gym and lunch is A), what kind of car he wanted (a lambrigini [sp?] ), where he wanted to travel (Rome)... what kind of music he likes (hilary duff..ashlee simpson) you know, just random questions. I asked what kind of things he does afterschool.. oddly enough.. >_> he said he is selling his moms couch on Ebay without her knowing.. Anyway, asked him if he goes to church.. Said he goes to Willow Creek. -_- Um, yeah. I just asked some things like if hes involved in a youth group (yes) ect. He swore and I made a face and hes just like "oh you dont like swearing? Im sorry" He asked me if I have a boyfriend.. (stupidly..force of habit, I said no.. but the truth is I do.. right now as I said before Jesus is my boyfriend and Im dedicated to Him.. ) So yeah.. I kinda get the feeling hes a bit slow BECAUSE (yes i have a reason) he asked me out! Gr. It was horrible! I said no..I didnt know him.. and hes like "well, I can meet you at lunch and we can talk.." And I was just like.. uh, no, Im sorry.. Made sure he wasnt upset..but yeah.. I hope he doesnt come out to lunch where I sit tomorrow. Yikes, hes a nice kid but... I just didnt know what to do in that situation. Well, yeah.. that was definately the weirdest thing today.. er, all year so far. Besides that.. nothing too much really highlights. I may update later.. A small note... Theo is upset with me.. not tooo sure why. Melody went to youth group Saturday and enjoyed it at first but after thinking it over she felt a bit uncomfortable with the topic.. Dad found out I may want to move in with my ma and things are getting tense.. Crystal says Im a selfish brat... >_> Anyway, thats all for now.
Well, a lot has KINDA been happening. Im going to start with today and make my way back as far as I can remember; as far as updates go. For one thing, after school today! Crystal had to go to Art Club for an officers meeting so I was sitting outside for an hour waiting. I didnt really have a problem with it. I could have gone to a club but I just felt like chilling. So okay, Im walking around for about 20 minutes by the front doors. A few thoughts pop into my head about witnessing or being a good example but I didnt act on it. Im just walking, and looking, and walking, and looking, right? Okay, so I see this small note on the ground and naturally, I think "Ooh juicy!" You know, thinking it had potential to put in my book, so I pick it up. It was Isaiah 50:4. It reads: "The Lord God hath given me the tongue of the Learned that I should know how to speak a word in season to (him that is) weary: he wakeneth morning by morning, he wakeneth mine ear to hear as the learned." So, I just intepreted it as...God telling me Ive heard the truth and know it. I can talk about it to the weary/people who dont know what I do. So I went and sat on a bench. A few seconds after I did this boy walks up to sit on the bench beside the one I was on and I just said 'hi' to be friendly. He asked if he could sit by me and I was just like 'oh yeah, sure..' You know, I figured it was a good oppurtunity to talk about the Lord. First impression, nice kid.. Had clammy hands.. (I know because when we introduced ourselves he shook my hand.. his name was Matthew) Well anyway, we started talking. I asked a lot of questions to just get to know him, be friendly.. set the air to a calmer feeling. Anyway, asked him his name, obviously, year in school (sophomore), age (15), some classes he has (only mensioned gym and lunch is A), what kind of car he wanted (a lambrigini [sp?] ), where he wanted to travel (Rome)... what kind of music he likes (hilary duff..ashlee simpson) you know, just random questions. I asked what kind of things he does afterschool.. oddly enough.. >_> he said he is selling his moms couch on Ebay without her knowing.. Anyway, asked him if he goes to church.. Said he goes to Willow Creek. -_- Um, yeah. I just asked some things like if hes involved in a youth group (yes) ect. He swore and I made a face and hes just like "oh you dont like swearing? Im sorry" He asked me if I have a boyfriend.. (stupidly..force of habit, I said no.. but the truth is I do.. right now as I said before Jesus is my boyfriend and Im dedicated to Him.. ) So yeah.. I kinda get the feeling hes a bit slow BECAUSE (yes i have a reason) he asked me out! Gr. It was horrible! I said no..I didnt know him.. and hes like "well, I can meet you at lunch and we can talk.." And I was just like.. uh, no, Im sorry.. Made sure he wasnt upset..but yeah.. I hope he doesnt come out to lunch where I sit tomorrow. Yikes, hes a nice kid but... I just didnt know what to do in that situation. Well, yeah.. that was definately the weirdest thing today.. er, all year so far. Besides that.. nothing too much really highlights. I may update later.. A small note... Theo is upset with me.. not tooo sure why. Melody went to youth group Saturday and enjoyed it at first but after thinking it over she felt a bit uncomfortable with the topic.. Dad found out I may want to move in with my ma and things are getting tense.. Crystal says Im a selfish brat... >_> Anyway, thats all for now.
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